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Hi Ladies, I can't believe how fast time is moving! Christmas already! WoW! I hope everyone has a safe holiday season. I will pop online again soon to update with new photo's and catch up on your blogs. Take care and I hope Santa is good to ya's!

TTYL
XOXO

Hi Ladies! Got another chance to pop online so I wanted to update real quick.
Things have been going well, every now and again I may get 4 hours sleep in a row. She's eating well and gaining weight, she's becoming more solid. The hardest thing so far has been the late nights and lack of sleep. The best has been everything else, especially when she smiles for me. I'm oober excited about having our first Christmas with a baby. The family is coming here for dinner like normal, turkey potato's and gravy mmmmm.
Maera's got a checkup apointment tomorrow at the midwives. I'm going to take the camera so we can get a shot of her and our midwife for her photo album.
I ended up losing 32 pounds throughout the pregnancy, and I'm down 2 pant sizes, man I feel good about that! The GD diet did me some good, so I'm trying my best to stick with it, although its not so easy with my friends buying me huge 1kg chocolate bars for my birthday lol.
We're going to try for a second baby naturally for a year and if we're not successful we'll go back to the clinic to have another IUI. It would be fabulous if we did it naturally for a change.
Well I wanna take some time to update myself on your blogs so off I go for now. Take care ladies!!

TTYL
XOXO

Sorry its been so long between posts, it's hard to get time to pop on. Maera is sleeping right now so I wanted to take advantage to write a little about my labour experience... so here it goes...

7:15am on Oct 29th my water broke and I lost my entire plug. I ran to the tub as it was running down my leg. Noone told me that when you lose you water that sometimes it can go all day because the babies head moves in and out of the way... and I was losing my water all day. I had to use puppy pee pads to help soak the water up so I could walk around the house. lol I had mild contractions for the first part of the morning, they were varying from 8-10 minutes apart. The midwife came and examined me and said she'd come back and check later in the day. Well my contractions stopped at around 5:30pm, she came back at aroun 9 pm. She then gave us the option of going to the hospital that night or first thing in the morning the next day, we opted to go right away as I wanted to make sure the baby was safe as my water had broken way earlier that day and they say there's a 24 hour window after that happens.
So we got to the hospital and they started the oxytocin, my contractions started becoming more freaquent and intense as time went on. I was only 2-3 cm dilated at around 3am. I was so bummed. More time passed and they checked again and I was 5-6cm. After 27 hours the midwife said I should take an epidural because I had been up for that many hours and it would help relax my body. Baby was facing sideways as well so that's another reason it was taking so long. I agreed to the epidural, but while we were waiting I had to have a bm, the nurse freaked because she didn't want me to give birth in the toilet, the midwife said let her go, so I did. (the nurses at in labour and delivery were annoying with the heart monitor and attitudes, its like they don't think women know anything.) I had a bm, went back to bed... then I had to toss my cookies, and I did. Well after that and waiting for almost 2 hours for the anesthesiologist, during which time the contractions became VERY intense and close together. Then I started to feel the ned to push... the anesthesiologist
finally came in and started the epidural, and as I sat there I had to push the baby , she was coming NOW. (What an intense feeling, the need to push.) The midwife kept telling me to breath through it, lol I was still pushing, I couldn't help it. So they finally finished giving me the epidural, got me back into the bed and I was actually giving birth. The baby was crowning, I was 8-9 when they started the epidural, the checked and I was 10, but not fully effaced so they completed that and literally within 3 contractions I had pushed her out. The midwife doesn't consider I used any medications because the baby was here befor the epidural even had a chance to kick in.
lol, I remember the anesthesiologist asking me, how's the pain... can you still feel it? YES I can! I'm giving birth you idiot LOL. Its all good though, cause I wanted to feel the pain.. and it was worth it! I have never felt such a good severe pain in my life!
I only had 1 stitch, she was born safe and sound at 11:57 am on oct 30th.
My life now adays is so full of love for her, she is truly a blessing and I can't imagine life without her now.
She rolled over for the first time at 11 days old from tummy to back, I have it on video(ppl say we're in trouble if she's rolling over that quick hehe). I LOVE breast feeding, I wouldn't have it any other way. Thankfully the PCOS hasn't inhibited my ability to produce milk as there was some fear there may have been issues. My time breastfeeding her is MY time with her, its such an intimate bonding experience.
I love my life, and I can't express how much I love my daughter...

TTYL
XOXO

Pic's!

Sorry about the long delay, things have been hectic getting used to having a baby around! hehe. I'll be back to tell the story of labour and delivery, but for now I wanted to post some pic's so you could see my little angel! I'de like to introduce Meara Nanette!

Its a GIRL!

7 pounds 10 oz's
21 inches
born oct 30th @ 1157am
More after sleep!!

7am this morning!

My water 'broke', I am now 1cm dilated and almost fully effaced. MW came this morning and checked me and also did a sweep. I am having contractions, so it'll hopefully be tonight or early tomorrow morning if it continues. MW is very pleased with how far/fast I've come since monday. I'm scared and excited at the same time.

I lost....

my plug! YAAAAAAY!

TTYL
XOXO

Midwife checkup!

Had my last midwife checkup prior to my due date of sunday! She did an exam, baby is ready to come, fully engaged, just waiting for somemore action to get my cervix thinning and such then we'll be holding our baby! She said not the next two days, but shortly after then. She suggested raspberry tea and another herbal pellet that melts under your tongue "actaea racemosa compose" , or otherwise known as "Easy Birth". So that coupled with sex, bouncy ball and a lot of praying hopefully we'll see the baby in the next week!
I'm excited now, very nervous, but will be happy to finally hold my Wee One. Things are getting more and more uncomfy and the baby is getting bigger, but that's normal.
I can't complain about anything throughout this pregnancy at all really, accept the the GD diet lol. But even that's going well. I'm interested to see how much weight I've actually dropped while being pregnant, cause I still don't weigh as much as I did just before I got pregnant. We'll see!
Take care for now laides, and thanx for the support and messages!!

TTYL
XOXO

wow!!

I think I've had my first couple of contractions tonight 2-3 hours apart! It may still be another week before s/he gets here, but there's still hope lol! It hurts, but I'm to excited to care! hehe

XOXO
TTYL

stiiiiill waiting for something to happen

Its not good when you get bored of waiting... it's funny how the 2ww at the end of pregnancy is so similar to the 2ww when ttc! Only this time I want cramps and such LOL.
I'm losing patience here! Gawd I don't know what to do with myself half the time! Any suggestions? I'm done the nursery... still working on cleaning the house but that's an ongoing battle... I really want something to start happening here!
K, done my rant LOL. Hope all is well with all of you!

TTYL
XOXO

my checkup today

Went to MW and had a checkup. She's such a nice lady, and straight to the point... not afraid to teach when questions are asked. I like her!
I start getting checked next week if I've dilated or anything. She suggested an exercise ball, lots of sex and some sitting positions to get things moving faster. Baby is still head down, and engaging, but not very far... so I'll be taking her advice, all of it hehe. Hubby'll be a happy man haha.
Last week I measured 38 weeks, this week I measured 37, so sometings happening! YAY! Let's get this show on the road!!
I'll keep posting any updates!

TTYL
XOXO

1 week 6 days to go!?! Wow, unbelievable!

Just some 36 weeks pregnant photo's! :)

wow

So it's starting to really click in that anytime now this baby that's inside, will be outside, uh boy! I am ready, but sometimes when I really really think about it... I get really freaked out, and other times I'm pumped and can't wait. Mostly I can't wait, but man oh man!

Oh I tested for strep B and it was negative so that's a good thing. Midwife said that 511 is when I goto the hospital, contraction that are 5 minutes apart, last a minute long and has been occuring for an hour. Hope I can remember that when its happening lol.

That's all I can really say right now lol. I'm at a loss for words, sorry about that!

TTYL
XOXO

Just a quick update

Hi Ladies. I had some light cramping off and on for the last couple days, nothing significant though. I have had a lot of preasure today on my pelvic bone ect. I go tomorrow to the midwifes for a check up. Baby is moving a lot right now as I type this, but it has been quiet the last couple days.
I have kept true to my word and the cleaning machine has started, floors are clean now, baby clothes are cleaned and put away, baby bag is packed. I still need to staralize the baby bottles ect, but I am waiting until a little closer for that. Scrubbing the bathrooms is next in line.
David and I got news yesterday that we get to take over his fathers current home in March when their new place is built. We're excited but overwhelmed with all the things to think about. Its such a great opportunity for us, our 'rent' will be going directly towards the mortgage for when we are good to get the loan to take over the mortgage. It'll be nice to have our own home. 3 bedroom, central air/heat, 2 bath, garage. The roof was just replaced along with the windows, all new flooring... its like a new home. I can't beleive that everything is happening all at once lol. Baby, house ect. Its all good stuff though! Took a long time to get there. Our families have been good to us, specially his with the van and the house. Wow, we're some lucky people.
That's all on that for now, so I'm gunna log off for the night.

TTYL
XOXO

3 wks 3 days to go...

MAT leave has been busy so far. Family emergencies and helping to get the inlaws house ready incase they need to sell it. I have successfully washed all the baby clothes and stuff, folded it, but haven't put it away yet. I still need to get my bag together for the hospital as well... I think I may go up and do that tonight.
The baby was engaging according to the midwife at my apointment last week.. it isn't happening fast enough for my liking personally hehe. I want to meet my baby finally, these last few weeks are going to be torcher! I am tired of guessing what labour & delivery will be like, I'm sick of thinking about it! I just want it to happen so I can move on with the fun stuff... raising our baby! :)
I want to lose my plug or my water, or I want lightening to really hit (although I know its happening slowly as I'm peeing like every 1/2 hour, and sometimes the pressure is crazy.). I thought I had some mild cramping a few times, different than BH (although I've had that too). I wonder if the midwife will start checking if I've dialted at all or if ZI'm thinning out now at my apointments sinse I'll be going weekly.
I go out friday with a girlfriend and she's gunna take some nice pictures outside of me and my mummy tummy.
Plans for next week... clean clean clean! Get this house in tip top condition for when the Wee One arrives. I also have some apointments and am volunteering the morning on the 14th at the polls for the canadian vote day! So i am trying to keep myself busy so time goes by quicker.
Man I can't wait to look into the eyes of my baby... finally after so long, we're almost there!

TTYL
XOXO

Well I start MAT leave on thursday. We've taken our BF class... I have learned how to properly sterlize all the baby dishes/bottles and pump, so I'll be working on that and washing all the clothing I got for the showers. It took 2 1/2 hrs to write the thankyou cards for the baby showers, now I just have to get them all delivered!
My sugar level is still all wonky, even with this diet. Tomorrow I go and get a glucometer and learn how to use it. I hope that will help me keep things under control.
The Wee One is getting big, keeping me up with movements until late late late, can't wait until MAT leave so I don't have to get up early. I can't wait to finally hold my baby and we lay eyes on one another for the first time. I know I'm going to fall in love even more. Everyone around us is getting excited and can't wait to meet him/her.
That's it for now, I hope you're all doing well, will catch up on your blogs momentarily.

TTYL
XOXO

Holy crap, 41 days to go!

And I'm soooooo READY! :):):)

TTYL
XOXO

My Baby Shower!

Here's a little montage of the baby shower, this way you can see the awesome cake and carriage, and all the people that love us!

Make an on-line slideshow at www.OneTrueMedia.com

TTYL
XOXO

Baby Showers!

Thought I would post my post from facebook as a quick update for now...

What a weekend! We waited a long time for the time that we'd have our own baby showers and this weekend was it! Friday night was the Man Shower, all the guys got together brought some diapers and played some poker, $5 a game. I hear it was a lot of fun! I do know that there were some still up until 7am lol. Poor Dave came home and we had him running running for the Ladies Baby Shower(poor guy hehe).
The laides shower was fabulous!! Sooo many people showed up to celebrate our blessing with us. The games were a lot of fun, the diapers with the different chocolate bars - it was funny watching the ladies sniffing the diapers, and the diapers looked so gross hehe. The toilet paper roll... to measure my tummy... that was just funny. There were many other games as well. We served some really yummy food and the cake was gourgeous (thanx to Sam)!! 3 different flavours, complete with little babies and their umbrella's and rainbows... wow!! We even had a watermellon cut in the shape of a baby carriage - it was a fruit bowl (thanx Brandi), so cute!! I can't wait until I see the pictures! You girls went all out!After all the gifts and diapers we rec'd we have been left just waiting now until the time I give birth to the baby. The Gifts we rec'd were all WONDERFUL, and we are still shocked with how much we rec'd from everyone... we cannot thank everyone enough for sharing this special event with us and for the wonderful gifts for the Wee One.
Dan, thankyou for putting together the Poker Man Shower for David, he had a lot of fun and we got a lot of diapers and baby wipes, our hall closet is FULL. Thanx to all the guys for coming out and joining in on the fun.
Samantha, thankyou for hobbling around in pain all day for us and putting all the effort into making the shower run smoothly. The cake was absolutely beautiful and I can't wait to get some pictures so I can put together a photo album of the day that was full of many great memories. I think everyone had fun with all the games and events of the day. Thanx for keeping yourself busy all week with preparing for hosting the guys party at your house and then the one at the common unit here.
Brandi the food was wonderful, thankyou very much for putting it all together and making it look so pretty and taste so yummy!! I am enjoying the left overs hehe. Thanx for helping with decorating/cleaning up!
Maddy - even though you're not on Facebook I hope your mum sends along my gratitude for all your help. Without you asking what you could do next, it wouldn't have gone as smoothly, we appreciate everything you've done!!
There were others who gave a hand when we were running behind and at the end of the shower with cleanup, thanx to all of you as well.
My shower was better than I would have ever thought it would be. I can't even express the emotions I felt all day and how moved andn loved David and I feel after the last two days. It was the nicest weekend anyone could have ever given us, we are so happy to have such great friends and family around us during such a joyous time in our lives. The day was very special and I truly appreciate everything from the bottom of my heart. I can't wait until the next step, which is bringing The Wee One into the world. Now that I'm all teary eyed again (Yes Sam I cry a lot LOL, I have every right after such a wonderful weekend hehehe, plus hormones hehe). Some people wanted to know how many bibs, wash cloths and diapers we rec'd... here's the stats LOL...
Baby Wash Cloths - 30
Baby Bibs - 29
Diapers - 788 (LOL, yes we used a calculator for that one hehe).

Off I go for now...
TTYL
XOXO

crappy! But not all crappy!

So I'm a little upset lately, depressed almost. I was doing well until this last Wednesday. We found out that my mothers test results (CAT scan) came back bad. She's been fighting cancer for I think about 5 years now, she's had 3 surgeries to try and remove it... it just keeps coming back. The apointment before the last one the Dr said he may not be able to remove the cancer on the left side due to the scar tissue from her previous surgeries. She's had ribs removed, mesh put into her chest to keep everything in place and had to have a metal post put in her back as the last serious operation she had they had to scrape a couple of her discs.
This last scan was to check how big the spots were getting, and we found out that they've multiplied and the cancer has moved into her blood system. They don't know how long she has, could be 3 months, could be upto 2 yrs... the doctor told her she would be able to enjoy the birth of her grandchild (The Wee One), and they'd do another scan afterwards to find out how far its moved. The cancer could pop up anywhere at anytime, it could lie dormant for a little while then all of a sudden spike up. Apparently the spots they've found are marble size now. The only way to treat it would be to remove it, which is no longer an option due to the fact it's become part of her blood system...
We knew it would eventually come to this, of course we had always hoped they would remove it all and it wouldn't come back but of course that's no longer the case. My baby only has a grandmother for we don't even know how long... David's mum passed away a year and a half ago from cancer, and now my mother will be as well. At least she'll be here for the birth and the beginning, I hope the cancer moves slow, but when the time comes and it's hard for her that it takes her quickly.
I feel really sad knowing I have limited time left with my mom, I have so much to learn from her about raising my own child. I get so pi$$ed off that it took so long to finally get pregnant... at least she'll be here for the birth.

I've been feeling okay other than the above story. The baby is getting bigger and when it gets the hickups its rather funny - my entire belly moves hehe. It happened at work last week and everyone thought it was really cool.
Taking the 3D U/S was cool, it was good to see the baby looks healthy. It was nice to the his/her little smiles :), after s/he finally moved it's little arms.
I find out the new diet regime and such on thursday. Hopefully they can explain things a little better for me too.

We may be moving into Dqavid's fathers old house... we find out in two weeks. They're building a new one due to his needs from the accident. Everything needs to be accesible (he was paralized waste down ina trucking accident just over a year ago). So they're checking to see if they can get a second mortgage and we'll rent out the original house until our credit is good enough to purchase it. David has already told me that mum would move in with us so we can help her through what she's going to be going through. I really hope we get the house, please keep us in your prayer and wishes that they get a second mortgage.

I think that's all that's new for now, take care ladies!

TTYL
XOXO

3D U/S & Almost Gestational Diabetes?!

Well I did my 1 hour GD test which required I complete the 3 hour GD test which came back with one high level. So next week I meet with the nutritionist. They or I take my blood once a week and am on a special diet from what I understand. Guess I'll find out more next week.



I went for our 3D u/s today, look see?!!!! :)



I can't wait, just over 9 wks to go!
Here's me about 2 weeks ago, once we get batteries in our camera I'll take another new pic...



I'll be back soon with further updates!

TTYL
XOXO

just a quicky, more tomorrow

Have my gd test tomorrow morning bright and early. Had a mini baby shower yesterday, and the flu today. I have some stuff to post so I'll be back tomorrow when I have more time.
TTYL
xoxo

Ouchy!

So the only new thing is that the muscles in my lower pelvic are killing me, moving sucks, sitting is okay for the most part but as soon as I move it hurts. It feels like I've pulled all the muscles in my pelvic are. I'm sure its just the baby getting bigger and muscles stretching, it's the most uncomfortable I've felt so far in the pregnancy. I think I'm going to try one of those stretchy support belts, cause I don't know what else will help. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
I get a 4 day weekend after tomorrow's work day, WAHOO!
The apointment with the nutritionist went well, I am doing pretty good accept I have to cut back on the juice and drink a little more milk. I also need to add a bit more meat and extra veggies, which will be difficult cause I get full a lot faster now. The goal is to gain 1/2 a ound a week from here on out. I've gained a little weight back but they are okay with how much I've gained, they're actually happy about it so thats cool.'
Well that's it for now, I'm going to try and google the muscle issue somemore.
TTYL
XOXO

P.s. one more prenatal class and that's it...

wow, 13 weeks left, 97 days to go!

Things are going well on this end. I haven't been sleeping much lately, don't really know why, even in between the 4-5 bathroom runs a night, for three nights I didn't sleep and finally... FINALLY last night I got a couple straight hours which felt much better! I figure its practice for when baby is here.
The invitations for the baby shower are finished, I'll be sending them out first couple weeks in august. I'll have to take pictures and post them here so u can see what they look like.
I've been doing well otherwise, still waiting for my tummy to come. It is slowly coming but I want my big mummy tummy.
Baby's moving lots, when it had the hickups last week it was such a cool feeling. Last night David finally got to see the baby dancing and my tummy moving in waves, he laughed and couldn't believe it hehe. It was a cool moment to share.
I only have to work three days this week which is nice! Long weekend next weekend and a day off for the nutritionist apointment.
Well, I dunno what else to write right now so off I go!

TTYL
XOXO

the next little while

Wow time is starting to move in a hurry, seems we have less and less time to get ready for our life changing experience at the end of oct, beginning of nov.
I have two baby shower, Dave's family one next month and everyone elses in september. I go next week to meet the nutritionist, then two weeks after the I get my GD test. Then at the end of august is the 3d U/S (woohoo!!), then mat leave, then a month later... baby! hehe
I'm getting excited now, finally a little bit excited!! It feels good for a change.
I have been reading lots on breast feeding, it sounds difficult but very rewarding for both baby and me, so I can't wait! I am nervous though about how difficult it will be, but I'll get through it I'm sure! :)
I think that's all for now, just a quicky tonight. Off to watch the rest of Borne Supremecy with David.

TTYL
XOXO

Our first trip to emergency and other pregnancy related topics...

Well, 24 weeks is where we're at. We finally had our first real scare last night. The post in blue may have TMI, so if your queezy don't read... just scroll down to the black lettering

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Last night we had garlic bread with our dinner, it gave me the worst upset stomache ever. I tried to goto the washroom a few times to help the pain and discomfort leave but it wouldn't. At 11:45pm I had gone to the washroom and wiped and there was blood. I FREAKED OUT! Dave had just finished asking if I was okay because I was in a lot of discomfort and that's when I noticed the dripping blood. I wasn't sure which area it was coming from, but it was a pretty good flow.
So we tried paiging the midwives and I didn't hear back so we went to the first emergency room that we knew would be open. (which isn't the hospital we are supossed to go too, we're actually supossed to goto a different hospital because we're with midwives and not an OBGYN; but we weren't thinking about delivering the baby we just wanted to get somewhere that there was help).
I was crying and shaking, but they got me right in, the HB was fine and I did a urine test and that was fine. Then we had to wait until the midwife on call would give permission for the OBGYN to do an exam , which we got but the Dr was delivering a baby. But come 2am he finally came into the room. The baby had been moving and kicking, obviously ablivious to what daddy and I were going through. He used the speculum (sp), which I HATE and now that I'm pregnant it hurts a little more when they use it because everything is so sensative. But he said everything with the baby seemed fine although I did have a 'fisher'.
A fisher... a tear in the anus that happens because all the tissues on a womans body becomes more sensative ect. So now I have cream and stuff, but at least the baby is fine. I've never been more relieved in my life. It was so scary seeing that blood. Everyone was excellent at the hospital, and the midwife called today and she was nice as well.
Although I did notice the 'politics' more with the difference between the midwives and hospital staff. Least I know the proceedure for next time. The paige I made to the midwives didn't even go through - she never rec'd it so I dunno what happened there, but I think we did the right thing and went to the closest hospital... even though the 'politics' gave me a guilty feeling. I was advised to go straight to the other hospital the next time (that's where the midwives 'work' out of). I also have a mast list of paiger numbers for all the midwives but I didn't have it handy, but I'll be sure to put it somwehere accessible now. What a night! Glad the Wee One is okay though! Phew!
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I have been having a hard time sleeping; I wake up numerous times at night, not just to pee but tossing and turning so I'm going to have to check into that. I have also had severe heart burn, so I'll have to look into that as well.

Back to the prenatal class tuesday, we had homework which we haven't done yet, I'll do it tomorrow. David and I have to watch count how many times each of us breaths in a minute when we don't know the other person is counting hehe. I'll do it tomorrow after work.

I'm getting together with the girls on wednesday to go look at some baby shower invites, but I think we may end up making them. I always like homemade things better. The Dollar Giant has some great scrap booking items that we can incorperate, so I'm excited about that. But we're gunna compare pricing and such.

Well that's about it for now.

TTYL
XOXO

Oooooh the emotions have started!

So, the emotional roller coaster finally kicked in last week at 22 weeks. My first emotional roller coaster ride was when I came home and David had taken Gypsy out, left the front door unlocked and a movie paused on the tv. I Came in and got nervous that something had happened. I even checked the phone to see if he left a message but the last call that was listed wasn't answered and it was 40 minutes previous to my arrival home. So that ment he was already gone for that long and so was my puppy. So I grabbed my keys and started the search. I found him around the corner in our complex socializing with the neighbours, well if I didn't take one look at my dog and start crying in front of the head coordinator for our coop and a bunch of other neighbours... *shaking head*, soooo embarassing. I picked Gypsy up and embrassed her and everyone was trying to sooth me "It's okay Jenn, she's just visiting..."Poor Dave LOL. I looked at him and asked him where was the note ect, in between sobs... LOL OMG it was so dramatic lol and embarassing. I started laughing at myself and everyone else got a laugh too.
Today (week 23), I woke up knowing right off that I shouldn't have gone to work, I was just toooo tired! Well I only lasted 1.5 hrs at work. First break I had looked around the room and one of the girls asked if I was okay and it started... here we go again with the crying! lol. I said I'm so tired all I want to do is cry, (so I did LOL). But at the same time as crying I was laughing because I was crying because I was just that tired. So I tried cleaning myself up before letting the boss know I was going home, but my supervisor said she'd let him know. At this point everyones laughing at me because I'm laughing because I'm crying... OMG SOOOO embarassing lol. However it was a good laugh and I did come home and sleep for 4 hrs straight!
So that's my emotional roller coaster so far hehe.

TTYL
XOXO

U/S!

We had our U/S today, it was a good 1/2 hour long! Got some great pic's. I've done up a montage which is posted in the next post. The baby is measuring perfect, we didn't find out the sex and couldn't if we wanted too because of it's position, which is good (I didn't really wanna know anyways, I would have been disapointed in myself for breaking down and finding out hehe. I really want the surprise at the end.. '" IT'S AAAAA .....".
I'll update again shortly, its late and bed time.

TTYL
XOXO

My Montage 7/3/08

Midwife Appointment, Surprise U/S Tomorrow!

Hi ladies! I went to my midwife apointment today, everything is measuring right, they even did a breast exam upon my request to see if things were moving in the right direction for breast feeding, which I am very relieved to say they are! My bp and HR, and lungs are good, so are all my glands. Baby is doing good, HR 160! WooHoo! Thye never rec'd the results from the soft clinic for my most recent U/S so they're sending me for one, it's booked for tomorrow in a town about 45 minutes from here. Apparently our entire city is booked until the end of July, which is too long I guess. So now we come back to wanting to know the babies sex or not. I am still not settled on this. I know David really wants to find out, he really wants a girl, I just don't want him to be disapointed if its not a girl. Part of me wouldn't mind knowing, the other part does want to know. My mother... I called her today and she says find out, but everyone wants us to find out which is partly why I don't want to find out. At my last U/S it I seen three lines while she was doing her measuring, which indicates it could be a girl, mum did that ring on a sting old wives tale thing and its coming back as a boy. I'm so confused. Tomorrow I could find out, but I don't know if I'll be disapointed that I found out or not. I don't really have a preference either way, a boy would be nice, but so would a girl hehe... I'm just pleased there's a baby in there. But I think i have to figure out what I want for ME, and not everyone else, cause after all I'm the one that has to go through labour, lol. Ooooh, any advice would be greatly appreciated!

I've added a slideshow of the baby room below so you can see the colours we chose and a Teddy Bear box project I did. I also am in the midst of re-painting the rocking chair, I have already refinished the cusions.

TTYLXOXO

My friend Brandi took this video while we were at the beach, LOLOL.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=904qeagZUkA

getting bigger!

My mummy tummy is getting slowly bigger which I'm very pleased about. I get to feel the baby move everyday which is nice. Although the sharp pinching in my right leg is getting on my nerves, but it's a small price to pay for such a blessing.
I goto my midwife apointment this wednesday and we start our prenatal classes a week from tuesday, we're very happy and excited to learn new things. It's a four week course so it'll help the time pass until next month when we get our 3D U/S which we can't wait for! I'm going to request to see a nutritionist at my apopintment, just to try and get things under wrap for any chances of gestational diabeties, cause my chances of having it are pretty high, I believe I get tested for it in the next 2 weeks. I'll probably get my requisite for the testing at my apointment wednesday.
I'm enjoying my only real holiday from work, 6 days off in a row, I'm on my third day today, it's been nice.
I don't know what else to update with right now. I am going to post photo's of the nursery in the next couple days, but right now I'm painting the rocking chair in that room, so when I get that mess cleaned up I'll take the pictures and post them here.
Well off for now, take care.

TTYL
XOXO

Giddy

I'm a little giddy today.
At night time I have a ritual. I give my fur babies there treats and then I lay and talk to the baby, poke my tummy and talk a little more. Last night the baby was kicking pretty good. The kicks have been getting stronger, and last night for the first time, I seen my tummy move in unison with the baby kicks. I have to say it was AMAZING! I always wished to be able to feel that and see my tummy moving and I can't believe how blessed I am to have experienced what I have so far. We are so blessed to have this miracle growing inside me, I can't wait to meet him/her in nov. Keep growing Wee One, big and strong!! Keep on exercising those muscles!!
That's all for now.
TTYL
XOXO

Kickin' around...

The baby is kicking a lot now, I feel it moving around and wapping me pretty good sometimes, 'just wait' they say, I hear it gets better :). It's an awesome feeling knowing there IS actually a baby in there. It can kick me all it wants! I can't wait until David can feel it by resting his hand on my belly. Soon I think, cause they're getting pretty strong.
Dave looked at me today and said "I can definately tell you're pregnant now, I can really see the roundness starting on your belly". That felt good to hear, cause I'm a heavier lady I really want my mummy tummy and it's starting to get more noticable which is nice.
Well off I go to check your blogs for updates. Take care for now ladies!

TTYL
XO

Names 'n stuff!

Well not to much to write really. I got my hair done, back to dark brown my actual natural colour... it'll make things easier for when the baby gets here. I counted and have 8 more paycheques until the Wee One is here.
Oh! Our names...
Maera Nanette Sloane if it's a girl - Maera after my mum, her middle name is Mae, and Nanette after David's mum who passed away
Gavyn Giovanni Sloane - I win with this name, Gavyn means white hawk in gaelic (Dave and I are both scottish), Giovanni because I just really like this name all together, it kind of rolls of the tongue.
The nursery looks good, I'll take pic's and post them soon. That's it for now.

TTYL
XOXO

19w0d updated belly pic's

Baby showers and various thoughts.

Booked the Hall for the baby shower, it's set for september 14th, incase I go into labour early. The original date was oct 4th, but I thought that was a little to close to my due date of Nov 2nd. I am compiling the list of people and addresses to send invites too. I am a little excited.
My friend S (the God-Mother of the Wee One), and my oldest friend B are planning the shower. We're doing it at the common unit so we don't have to worry about lack of space or seating... ect. Cleaning will be easy and my pets don't have to suffer from the number of people we will have over. I'm hoping that most of the people we're inviting show up.
Dave will be doing a poker night for the guys, entry fee is a bag of diapers. So He's going to talk to the God-Father... no not the famous one, The Wee One's God-Father lol. He's the one we got the idea from. They had enough diapers for a year for doing a poker night! Hopefully we'll get just as lucky!
Mummy tummy is getting larger, and I'm feeling the baby a little more freaquently.
I think at my next apointment with the midwives I'm going to accept the invite to see a nutritionist as I think it will help ensure I am getting enough food/vitamins for the growing baby. I am doing well, but I can always take advice from a professional lol. When she first mentioned it at my first apointment I think I was a little offended, don't know why really, but I've thought about it and really want to do it.
Well, I think that's it for now. take care ladies.

TTYL
XOXO

18 w 2 d! U/S pic's!

Wee One!!



The baby is resting it's head on its hand. Also the little blur to the right side (bottom) that looks like a teddy bear! ha! We're doing Teddy's for the nursery theme! Love you Wee One! Hiiiiii Baby! :)
Oh and the HB was 155, so it's good.

TTYL
XOXO

Baby is moving, moving today! YAAAAY! Hi Wee one lol.
Get to see the Wee One monday, can't wait! I think that's all I got for now. Take care!

Lots of stretching and pulling today! The belly is getting bigger and bigger. I went to mum's today and she touched my tummy and the looks on her face was cool, it's nice that other people can feel it now. At work the ladies took turns poking my belly LOL. It was a hoot. Just wait I guess until I get lots bigger, then I'll have strangers rubbing my tummy (which I'll have to freak out about LOL). Friends and family are good, but a friend of mine had her belly rubbed by a complete stranger. How would one reacte to that? I laugh now, but...
David's shift is going to 6 days a week in august which will be good for money, but man will he be tired!
It's amazing how you keep your mind so busy on trying to get to the next U/S or the next pregnancy bump... "okay I'll be good when this day gets here, ect", then all of a sudden you're almost half way there! It feels like ya kinda miss some of the pregnancy because you're to busy worrying about getting to the next stage. It's huge to think how fast the last 4 months really have come and gone, but going through it is such a pain staking process, with each little hump and worry. Each day so triumphant becuase you made it, each passing week a HUGE deal because the baby inside is continuing to grow.
What does it 'feel like' right now? It feels like my stomache is always full, like I have just eaten, kind of has a little bit of stiffness to it, but I am a lucky one because of my height, the baby has lots of room. I understand that shorter women by now have problems moving and everything... My turn will come in the next few weeks I'm sure hehe.
We're slowly collecting adresses for the baby shower. David is going to call his mum's side to see if they'd like to come and get their addresses, he knows them better. It's really too bad Nanette won't be here, but she will be in spirit, and with her family being there it'll make it feel like she's still with us. My friends are still planning the baby shower but I really want to be a part of ti as well, so I'll be buying the invites and table cloths and such, but their taking care of events and food. I'll be booking the common unit here in the next few days for october 4th.
I am on countdown at work for Mat leave, even though it's still 5 month away - seems so far right now... but I'm sure it'll go quickly. Oct 2nd is the last day hopefully.
Well I don't know what else to chitty chat about so I'm off for now.

TTYL
XOXO

Belly shot

This is a shot of my beginning mummy tummy. Don't mind the look on my face, I got dave to take another pic, but it wasn't a good one either. This was from last week, 16 weeks 2 days I believe. I'll probably start taking them weekly now as I am showing a bit more. I think I'll be more comfortable when my two belly's become one hehehe. But my mummy tummy is definatley there!

wow I need to blog more often!

Well, things are going well. One week from monday until we see the Wee One again. I can certainly feel a big difference in my abdomin, definately feels like there's something in there now! Starting to look like it to. I can't wait til I start showing more. Few more weeks, maybe longer as they said I have a tall abdomin and there's plenty of room in there. My siatic nerve has started to pinch now when I'm seeping, so I'll have to figure something out for that. More stretching would help I think. I have had a much bigger appetite, which is a nice change, but I need to keep on eating healthy extra's.
The nicer weather is finally here and I've started garden work, next weekend I'm hoping to get a border made of 2-by-4's. DH is going to build it. Then I can plant some nice new flowers. Hopefully the weather stays nice.
I'm gunna go for now, very tired, but I'll be back soon to update again. take care ladies!

TTYL
XOXO

Everything is going well here. I am feeling more pregnant, felt the baby move a couple times, such a little flutter, can't wait until s/he's bigger and I can feel it better and for longer. I have to find some mat pants, wish me luck! I'm already plus size so I don't think I'll have much luck there, but ya never know I might find something on a rack somewhere. :)
It'll be a busy weekend, we're going to take a drive along the lake through all the little beach towns, it should be fun... it's the first long weekend and they're really popular areas for ppl here. We're gunna pack a picnic and just drive along side the lake and stop at some stores along the way... and frequent bathroom breaks as I'm now peeing once an hour. lol
Well I'll catch up again soon, but probably not until after the long weekend. Take care everyone!

TTYL
XOXO

some things in life are rather painful...

Like being pregnant with an impacted tooth and the dentist won't even look at you! My head is killing me, not just my jaw, or my gums, or my teeth.... oh noooo it's the entire package, headaches neck-aches and ear-aches lol. They referred me to my family Dr. who I went to see yesterday. She's not a dentist.... she's a Dr LOL. She poked and prodded my mouth until I nearly jumped off of the exam table, when she laughed and said "I think we found it!" I couldn't help but laugh too, even though it hurt like an SOB. I have been given an antibiotic for any infection there may be, which I was afraid to take because I'm pregnant... I take it for 7 days and it should take care of any problems, and not harm the baby. I am taking tylenol for the pain, and trying to use anbesol to freeze my mouth when it's intense. I just wish I could sleep through an entire night. She booked a follow up apointment next week as she wanted to talk to a dental surgeon friend of hers... so we'll see.
On a happier note, I'm a few short days away from offically being in my second trimester!!! We did some work on the babies room on the weekend. We put up some wood boarder which we painted white to finish off the walls with stripes half way up. I'll post pictures. We also got the crib put together, we just need to purchase a new mattress for it which I've been pricing out online.
I finally get to have an appoitment with our midwife clinic. There's a story in itself! I called like 2 months ago to get put on the list, they said they would call back when they got to my due date. I hadn't heard from them, hadn't heard from them, so I called last week the same day we had our U/S. Well the lady wasn't very nice and said they don't call and let people know if they've been accepeted or not, and that they do repeat clients, then low income clients (Meninites, ect) then they add new patients; and this year they have over 300 births.... Well that's no good cause here I'm 3 months along with no prenatal care. So a friend of my had a midwife thru the same clinic for my God-Daughters birth so she made a call to her midwife, and magically enough I got a call from them, and they magically had an opening... taa-daaaaa! LOL. So I'm looking forward to friday morning and meeting them and asking a bunch of questions! I'll let ya's know how that goes.
I have lots more to say, but I'll save it for another day. Take care laides!

TTYL
XOXO

The Wee One, second U/S!

Well I have an updated pic of The Wee One! S/He was ' Kung Fu Fighting' while we had the U/S hehe. I got to see the little hands, that was awesome! I heard the HB, 154! 3 inches now! IPS U/S was clear so far from what I understand. We just wait for bw now. Then the second BW screening is May 18th. Next U/S June 7th, long ways off from now hehe, feels like it anyways hehe.

Well, 2 days til we see the Wee one!

I haven't been on much, been busy with the nice weather.
We get to see the Wee One thursday. They start the screening for downs, ect.
David's bday was a hoot. I had a headache for three days straight... he drank and I got the hang over lol.
The weather is beautiful here and the leaves are coming on the trees. The flowers in the front garden are coming out rather nicely, yellow dafodills, red and yellow tulips, and some purple flowers, and I don't know what kind they were. The neighbours are jealous. lol yahoo for me HAHAHA.
Well, american Idol is on, and they're doing MUSICALS YAAAAAAAAAAAAA! So Off I go for now, I'll be back later tonight to catch up on your blogs.

TTYL
XOXO

Not feeling so hot today lol. Very sleepy the last 2 weeks... although I did have a really good appetite today.
David's bday is coming together nicely, Sam's got the cake nearly finished, and I just have decorations to get sometime over the next couple of days. I'm also going out and buying a new outfit for myself as I get a nice size commission cheque back this week. So I'm going to buy something pretty for his party.
Other than that, we're just on the countdown for the next U/S a week from tomorrow.

TTYL
XOXO

11 weeks and a day!

Hi ladies. What's been happening?
I took Katy to the Avril Lavigne concert, it was a blast... I was actually impressed with her show, she sings just as good live as she does on cd. Katy had fun too.
David's bday is the week. We've planned a shin-dig at our karaoke bar... my friend is making his cake and we'll be doing some other stuff too. I have to talk in code incase for some reason he reads my blog lol.
We got the backyard all tidy, nomore recycling it's been taken out, we raked a little but have to wait until the ground dries up somemore because there are bigs puddles out there and lots of mud. We're hoping it dries up soon as we can't wait to get the rest raked up.
I actually started writing in my baby book again, still have to catch up on a bit of the story but we';re getting there slowly. We also put blinds up in the babies room this weekend, it's looking good. Time to organize all the stuff, but I still don't want to go in and touch anything until my second trimester. WE'RE ALMOST THERE! 3 weeks to go I believe! Just over a week until our next U/S. I'm feeling 'fat' these days lol. I can see my tummy taking shape a little which is very exciting, but I can't wait to show so everyone else can see! That'll be a while though, guess it's my special secret still, well out special secret! :).
I wanna catch up on everyones blogs so I'm done for now. Take care.

TTYL
XOXO

Spring has sprung! I seen my first robin today! :)

Yes I was so pleased to see my first robin today. I made a wish and everything, YAY! It means spring is really coming, wahoo!
OMG I feel sick tonight LOL. My tummy is swirling lol. Why do I laugh? Cause, this is the closest I've been to morning sickness, this happens maybe once or twice a week, more freaquently lately than not.
I had all these big plans to scrub the floors and make it smell nice in here, I got as far as steam cleaning the carpet in the bedroom, getting my laundry put away and then I fizzled lol. Well my energy did anyways hehe. Aww well the weekend is coming up, the list of things to do has gotten bigger, but that's just fine with me! :)
I want to flat iron my hair for work, I'm coloring it monday so it'll be the last straightening with redish hair before I go back to my natural color (or as close as they can get anyways hehe). I did check around and it's okay to go for a hair apointment I guess, so I'm getting it doen cause it looks like crap! hehe.
That's all that's new right now, off I go to learn two/three new songs for karaoke (Natural Woman, Joy and Pain, and Wishing Well).

TTYL
XOXO

I have been wanting to start writing my pregnancy experiences in our TTC Journal for the baby, but I just haven't picked the book up yet. I think I'm still afraid it's not real or something. I don't really know what's keeping me from writing in it, one of these days I'll pick it up and get to it. I should do it soon before I forget all the little things I'm feeling or wanting to say to the Wee One.

I am feeling a little ill tonight, wonderful nausea! I'm not complaining though, never complaining! Just stating a fact!! :) Heaches gone though, YAY!

I don't know what else to write. Weird how all the words have been lost lately lol. I can't wait til the 24th to see the Wee One again.

Oh, Avril Lavigne; a week from tomorrow I get to take my neice to the concert for her bday. I'm taking her out to buy a new outfit first. It'll be a nice time!

TTYL
XOXO

Migraines suck!

I've had the same frigin painful headache for 2.5 days. I called sick to work as I wanted it to go away, and its still here... grrrr.
Not to much is happening other than that. The weather is nicer now, just waiting for it to warm up enough to melt the ice in the backyard so I can get out there and clean.
Hope all is well.

TTYL
XOXO

8w5d - and we're good!

No cramping today! I've had lots of gas and digestion issues, so I think that's probably because of all the stretching yesterday. But thanx for the good vibes! They worked!!
We got a crib today! Someone David works with told him last night (he finally went back after 3 weeks off), that he'd be by to drop that off today and he came. We also got a change table, bassinet (really pretty), and crib. We also got a Winnie the pooh bedding and some other musical attachments for the crib. It was very nice, and all for free, so it's the right price!! I'll take pictures and post them later so you can see the bassinet cause I think it's so beautiful.
I have still stuck with my part, no purchasing baby things until half way through 2nd trimester into the third...
Well I gotta go for now but I'll be back to post pic's of the bassinet, maybe not today but for sure tomorrow.

TTYL
XOXO

8w4d

Hi ladies.
I've had cramping today, like burning in my abdomin. No spotting or anything. I've had 2 rather sharper cramps but that's it. I'm a little freaked out, but I've read it's normal around this time as the uterus is stretching. I'll keep my eyes out, but I'm sure everythings good. I've had some nausea as well, sore breasts still, constipated ect.
I don't really have much else to write about for now. Take care all. I'll go through and update myself on your blogs tomorrow.

TTYL
XOXO

The Wee One! Nov 2nd due date confirmed!

Here is a picture of our little miracle. Meassuring 18mm (8 weeks 2 days, which is pretty much bang on due to the leap year), heartbeat of between 167 and 171, we got to see the baby for the first time today! The Dr. said everything is perfect and that after a great U/S like today I have a 94% chance of a healthy delivery at the end of 9 months. He's very pleased with everything!
We go back April 24th for screening for Chromosomal Defects.

I'de like to introduce Our Wee One...



We have a video online at youtube for family and friends to hear the heartbeat, you can check it out at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uS2nutK939g .

TTYL
XOXO

Tomorrow's U/S...

I'm so nervous about tomorrows U/S. We have a video camera to hopefully tape it if they allow it. Please let everything be good... OMG. We've been waiting for tomorrow with baited breath, fingers crossed and wishing time would hurry up. Now it's here and we're scared LOL. I know it sounds so stupid but I can't help it. What if there's something wrong and its all been a mean joke? What if everything is fine? It'll be the first time that we see the baby, that's scary too (at the same time as exciting). It puts everything into such a different perspective! I can't wait, but I'm so scared lol. I will be very relieved. I sound so silly right now, but its how I'm feeling.
I am going to try and get some sleep as I'll be up and out the door before I know it!

Take care all!
TTYL
XOXO

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter/bunny day/spring to all!
I am on week 8, YAY! I am very constipated, I know TMI. I googled it, drink more and eat the fruit I got when we went grocery shopping lol. I also got some yummy wheat for breakfast! So hopefully things will change for that. Also walk more and drink juice... so I'll get er done!
Had a nice visit with dad today, took him out for a roll up the rim at Tim Hortons. Yesterday I visited mum and she had purchased a small photo album with a teddy bear on the front (which is the theme for the nursery), and she also got 2 soothers lol. It was odd holding the soothers in my hand lol. Little things that 'bring it home' that we're actually pregnant. Sheesh, wait til Tuesday right? hehe. I can't wait to be reassurred that all is well in there.
Well I'm off for now, take care.

TTYL
XOXO

The countdowns are on!

1 more day of work until a glorious 5 day weekend! YAY FOR SLEEPING IN!

5.5 more days until we see The Wee One for the first time and hear the heartbeat. I am so nervous and hope everything is good. I think I'll be more excited about things after the apointment if it turns out good. I look forward to tat in itself.

Tomorrow we find out if David goes back to work, I hope he does as WE NEED MONEY. I need to start getting things done, like cars fixed (before they totally breakdown), chest freezer purchased(we're getting a used on from someone I work with $25!), new mattress, washer and dryer(cause I don't want to lug all our clothes, plus the babys clothes and the baby to the laundry matt every week. I also need time to get some money saved up for emergencies. Not to mention the other zillion things that need to be purchased and taken care of so we're stittng good for when our little sweetheart is here.

These are the things that are slowly making me crazy!

I dunno what else to type about right this minute so I guess I'm gunna go for now.

TTYL
XOXO

7 wks!

Well, we're at 7 wks. I have had much fatigue, some headaches yesterday and today and lots of mood swings, oh and sore heavier breasts. I am now addicted to peach juice! David is happy cause the kind I like is $2 for a 2lt bottle hehe.
I can't wait until some of this fatigue passes, as I am having a hard time getting anything done because all I want to do is sleep or sit and veg lol. I'm not complaining about any of the 'symptoms' as it's all part of the experience! :)
I did get my workout dvd friday so I'll check that out tomorrow. I also can't wait for the weather to warm up as I want to walk more, but because of the ice, snow and cold it makes it difficult.
A friend of our is giving us her infant car seat, bouncy seat and bath for our baby. It was nice of her. We're also getting a crib from my SIL. the Wee Ones aunty and uncle bought our first stuffy for the baby room, it's a really soft long eared bunny... and the color matches the room, it was so nice of them. We're going to do a teddy bear theme.
Our first U/S is next tuesday! YAY! I can't wait to hear the baby and see the baby, it will make everything seem more real. I am actually excited that its been lmost 2 months now, it sounds so good saying it that way!
Well off I go for now, David is going to rub my sholders to help with my headache.

TTYL
XOXO

Not to much is happening really. I stayed home from work today as I haven't been feeling well, it's not morning sickness I am actually fighting a bug I think. I slept for 4 hours today after sleeping all nigt. I hope I can sleep tonight! I'm starting to get tired again ( believe it or not), so hopefully I won't have any problems.
Oh I got a book of piano music, I started tapping away a bit today at a couple of the songs, but I've noticed that I will have to wait until David's out as he wants to talk as soon as I go over to the piano LOL.
My brother and is fiance and my niece are coming up this weekend, we're taking both neices and the nephew to a sugar bush, we get to do the horse drawn hay ride and breakfast thing. I'm looking forward to that saturday.
My workout dvd has yet to make it to my house. I filed a 'complaint' just now, hopefully I'll get that cleared up.
Well, I'm off for now. Take care.

TTYL
XOXO

So Dave's injured foot is creating a little to much added stress lol. We need the money that we're waiting for from WSIB to help pay our bills for the month as I don't make enough to cover them all. Not to mention I refused to take the garbage out yesterday after working all day and lugging/washing/drying the laundry at the laundry mat. I was way too tired, so now we have extra garbage until next week. Lovely! The air cast is kinda stinky too LOL.
Gypsy is back from her surgery, it's good to have her home! We missed her a lot last night. She's a little dopey, but when she is awake she wants to jump around but we have to stop her because her stitches might rip. Poor thing. I took her outside to pee and she tried sniffing the ground but can't quite do it right because of the 'Elizabethan' collar she has on. Every time she went to sniff she'd kick up snow, awww. It was cute, sad, and funny all at once, poor thing. hehe. She's gotta wear it for 10 days, I feel bad for her. She got frustrated a couple times cause she couldn't clean herself. She did a couple of those "HMPH!" sounds, whined a bit then sat down; got up and circled herself and did it again. Awwwwww.
Work this week was oober stressful with changes that the management said. As well the teenagers are getting on my nurves really bad, their little diva-ness GRRRRR. Plus the areas that we're calling are hard becuase of newspaper articles against what we're doing, so less sales, but we're still expected to make the same amount of sales or more. I seriously think some of them are saying things they shouldn't which is why they seem to get more sales. But thast just goes to show ya, I don't lie or fluff the sales... I make sure their honest sales... I seriously think I'm to honest for this job. I just need to hold off for 7 more months, then I go on MAT leave and hopefully do some home schooling to get a better job while we raise the wee-one.
I went to the doctors today, the fill-in doctor was very nice. I asked bunches of questions about how I was feeling and she said everything sounded normal. I also found out that we don't need a referral for the midwife clinic. So we got the number from them and I called right away to give them my info. They are just getting to October due dates, so perfect timing on our part! The midwives will go through and we'll find out who is available to take us on as patients. YAY! I'm a little excited about that. OHIP covers it as well so that's excellent!
I forgot to ask the doctor about the gym, but I am gunna go and take advantage of the treadmill and do some light weights. I have a good understanding of what not to do now.
Well I should go for now. Take care!

TTYL
XOXO

So David hurt himself at work and is now wearing an 'Air Cast', which looks like the storm troopers boots from Star Wars. He's off for 2 wks, and has filed for WSIB (workmans compensation)... hopefully the money comes right away.
I've had an up and down day, very tired now. I'm watching American Idol right now. Gunna grab a quick shower, then relax. That's all I really have to chit chat about tonight.

Take care all.
TTYL
XOXO

So today at work I was very tired. I haven't been sleeping through the night the last couple nights. Well today at work I started falling asleep on the phone... again. But this time my eyes closed while I was writing notes on some leads, and the first lead when I opened my eyes again I had written "the bodies will be dispersed accordingly', k... I sell WHMIS LOL, health and safety training, so where the heck did that come from? LOL. Then a couple calls later the same thing happened only this time, in my sleepiness I had written, "she will follow her heart" LOLOL. OMG I felt like I was going nuts. So I told the supervisor that I was going home. I tried explaining what was happening with being in and out of consciousness, but started laughing so hard she was laughing and tears were streaming down both our faces, then it felt like I was crying a bit. Wow, what a day! Weird eh? lol Little extreme if ya ask me. So I got home after a slow drive here, and called the SOFT clinic, which is where we did our IUI. I explained to the lady that I have had major fatigue, she asked if I was drinking lots of water and taking my prenatal vitamins, I said yes. We both started laughing after I went through the days work story. She referred me to our family doctor to get referred to a midwife or OB. So I got an appointment for Friday with a substitute doctor as ours is gone for 2 wks. I really wanna see if they can suggest anything for this fatigue. I slept for 2 hrs, and Dave was good about it, after we laughed of course. He even cooked dinner.
That's my story of the day, take care all.

TTYL
XOXO

yay for long weekends

So I'm on a long weekend. I'm watching a movie "In her mothers footsteps", it's actually pretty freaky.
Not to much to report, it's getting really cold again and more snow tomorrow. I've about had enough ice and snow. Can't wait until spring, get outside to do some gardening!! We want to setup a nice area in the backyard as well.
I've had discomfort in my abdomin, like from the left side stretching to the right, specially if I sit upright. I don't know if its gas maybe or something. I've tried googling it to make sure its normal, but I keep coming across the same info over and over again. It's like little pokes n pulls. I can't wait to get my workout dvd in the mail so I can start that. When I goto the gym next I'm going to spk with a trainer there to see what kind of a workout I can have.
I really don't know what else to chit chat about right now, its late anyways, so I'm off.

Take care!
TTYL
XOXO

today

Today was interesting. Man was I irritated... at almost everything! Then I went for a visit at a friends and it was nice to see her so things got better after that.
I don't really feel pregnant accept the REALLY sore breasts, irritability, little nausea, and fatigue. I can't wait to feel something moving or even hear the heartbeat in March as it will relieve some worry. I'm so paranoid about miscarriage, people keep reminding me it's early, it's still early, ect ect. I know they're probably just trying to be cautious, but give me a break, I'm finally pregnant and I put enough caution/worry on myself.
People say the oddest things. I have gotten a lot of "are you having twins?", " do you think it's twins?" , "One or two?" . Sheesh. lol. I read on someones blog about this before, man were they right! People say it all the time! lol
Anyways. I got both my t4's now, so I get to do my taxes. I'm going to use the money to buy a scrap book for baby, and get started on that. I think I may take Gypsy to the doggy spa as well. She gets fixed next week so a clean haircut would be good for after surgery care.
I've also started painting the carousel horse for the nursery... that'll take a while! I'll post pics when I'm done.
I took friday off from work as I won a free day off with pay, and I figured I'de take advantage of it. I think David and I need the time together to let things sink in. Plus the extra days rest would be good.
Gotta go for now. Take care!

TTYL!
XOXO

March 25th - first U/S!

The countdown is on for March 25th, we get to hear our babies heartbeat for the first time! I'm excited!! It seems so far away though!
I'm googling some info on workouts when you're expecting as I want to keep some kind of workout routine. I don't know what I should and shouldn't be doing, so its research time.
Funny, ya spend so much time trying to get pregnant and researching all that that when you finally do get pregnant you're kind of lost LOL.
I have been super tired and my breasts are really starting to hurt! I'm in noway shape or form complaining! It's more like celebrating. As long as somethings happening it's kind of reassuring.
I went to WW tonight, I told them we were expecting and they were nice enough to put my membership on hold until after the baby is born.
It's a short post tonight, but I'll make up for it at some point hehe.

TTYL
XOXO

Thanx for all the congratulations and happy stuff!

Soooo! The 2nd BETA came back at 426, which is more than double! She was very happy with the number. I pray that all is going well in there and that are 'Wee one' is growing strong and healthy! We find out tomorrow when our first U/S is.

We're still shocked, and have told more people than we thought we would, but news travels fast and we would rather tell certain people ourselves then have them find out 3rd party. So we're doing our best to cover our basis. lol I am so afraid something will go wrong. How do you get past that? I know everything is going as it should but ya just move from one worry to another eh? LOL

I want to post my story about saturday, its kinda funny. David is still here and is leaving for work later so I'll see if I have enough energy after dishes to type it out. If not then it'll be tomorrow.

I have been super tired and fell asleep a couple time at work so I left early. The drive home was interesting but we got here safe! K, gotta fly for now. I'll check everyone blogs out after!!

TTYL
XOXO

cd37/cd38, 14/15dpiui

WE'RE PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BETA = 174

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!

We go back tomorrow for the second BETA, praying its a good number too!!!
That's all I got for now as it's been a busy weekend, gunna have a quick nap. But I'll be back later to write about it.

Brandi, if you're reading this before I talk to you on the phone, I tried reaching you to tell you... and I hope you're having fun on your trip.

TTYL
XOXO

cd 36 , 13 dpiui , no AF YAAAAAAY!

Hi ladies. I went to work today, felt like crap LOL. Everything I ate made me feel sick, so I didn't eat much. I am very tired! I have been a bit down today as I am nervously awaiting tomorrows test results. I hope I catch them before they close... and I hope I don't have to wait all day lol. The last 5 days have been torture to say the least. I have done hpt's, but I can't say I'm pregnant until the BETA test tomorrow.
I want to start begging the universe for a great result tomorrow. Alas I am have cramps, so I don't know what's going on in there.
Thanx for all the supportive words!! I look forward to seeing them everytime I check in. Take care for now!

TTYL

cd35, 12dpiui

No AF! Felt sick all day, everything I've eaten has gone right through me. Moody? Huh, NOOOOOOOO pateince! I have flutteries in my abdomin, and some cramping (but I think that's because it feels like I have the flu). Temp this morning 98.3. I still have a feeling that something's 'there' . I had a very BIG dizzy moment, it was odd, the entire world spun momentarily. My nerves have been really bad today... but I think that's because I am nervous about my beta saturday. I guess we'll see then what the story is! I may not be able to get online right away, the weekend is very busy.
We have a birthday party friday night, then lunch with them on saturday, and after that the guys are going to do paint ball; not sure what us ladies are gunna do. I'll post as soon as I can. I may be able to post tomorrow. Depending on how I'm feeling, I may not be going to work.

TTYL
XOXO

Lunar Eclipse

I'm watching the, lunar eclipse tonight, its beautiful! What time can you see it in your part of the world? It's 8:57pm right now and just starting!

TTYL
XOXO

cd34, 11dpiui and counting!

So I called the clinic today, and they said we would get the beta results back same day even if it is saturday. So I'm happy about that.

Symptoms today include headache, man what a headache! Cramping (AF like) on right, then lighter cramping throughout. I can still feel like there's something there,but different than yesterday. Maybe I am gunna get AF. Temp is still 98.0.

Thankyou for all your well wishing! It's appreciated!

TTYL
XOXO

cd33 (wow), 10dpiui, no AF YAY!

Hi ladies. Today I have a melon sitting in my abdomin all day, it's been kind of an odd feeling, like my blatter is full, but its not my blatter. Hard to explain really. I had a major cramp on the left side, like AF last night... I was pretty worried, but still no AF! I've been gasy (TMI, sorry), and I have been a little 'frisky' today with DH. Temp was 98.0.

I think that's all I can report right now. Take care ladies, and thanx for your continued support!! Hugs to you!

TTYL
XOXO

cd32, 9dpiui

Today was a nice day with my mum, we visited my dad as well. He was grumpy, but he likes to push mum's buttons and be that way when she's around... *shaking head*.
Thanx for your comments yesterday, I appreciate it.

Today I took my temp and it was 97.7, I took it again right away and it was 98.0, so I don't know what to think about that. I think I'm torturing myself lol. I haven't had any other abnormal feelings. Still no AF, so that's a good thing!

***Edited to add*** - stomache was really upset after supper tonight. Have a heavy feeling in lower abdomin, hope its not AF rearing her head! Wishing her away! Wishing her away!


Well, I'm off for now.

TTYL

7dpiui & 8dpiui and other stuff, today is cd31

7dpiui - not really to much going on! 98.0 temp
8dpiui - some quick fluttering in lower abdomin, couple low grade cramps, Last night I almost froze when I tried to fall asleep. I wrapped up in my blanket and had a hard time falling sleep because I was so cold, I was shivering too, but was warm to the touch. Temp this morning was 98.3. Tired and moody.

***

A couple things on my mind... this is the not so positive part of the post, so if ya don't want to read it skip to bottom...

I find that I AM pretty depressed that our treatments haven't worked. Both DH and I are short tempered and very upset lately. I'm tired of sticking myself with drugs and taking pills, getting blood tests and other personal exams for most of the month. It just really sux. I'm tired of pretending to be happy in everyday life, just to keep people from saying things like "Oh don't worry it will happen when the times right...", or "Just relax". Or even for people who don't even think about what might be bothering us and ask "what's wrong?" I just don't want to explain anymore. Sometimes I just need to be angry, tired and fruserated. I understand people are trying to be nice and helpful, but ya just get tired of hearing it, or having to explain what it's like, ya know? Although I try to explain what it's like so people will understand.
DH had a bit of a 'break thru' friday night. He let it rip how he was feeling about our fertility issues. He's so tired too. He's frusterated most of the time because he wants his own kids to spend time with and fall asleep cuddling, buy xmas gifts for, plan bday parties for ect. He let it all out. He told me he felt like a failure because he couldn't make this happen. He has so much love to give our future baby. He was tired of all the doctors and apointments. I tried telling him it wasn't him that the problem lay with, but he wouldn't have it; He said we are going through this together and we share the same pain and frusteration, and that the fault doesn't just lie in my hands. It feels so hopeless sometimes.
We talked about how it's effecting our 'everyday lives' even more. Our intimate life suffers, like, how do you bounce back from that? Sex drive for both of us have gone to zilch. Our everyday mood suffers. We have little patients for the 'normal' things in life anymore, we are angry a lot, not at anyone or each other, just generally angry. We feel cheated, used and kicked!

Tonight I'm trying to blog about it and let some of it go, to try and stay positive. I just want to cry most of the time. I try my best to keep 'my chin up', stay positive for people around me. I am making a lot of sarcastic comments about my lack of ability to procreate, which upsets friends and family... I probably shouldn't, but it kind of helps a little bit. The sadness of it all is a lot to hide all of the time.

I'm scared to goto the next level of injectables, I hate drugs. I'm tired of having to be monitored for yet another month to see if my body will cooperate with the drugs I'm pumping into my system. I'm tired of geing tired. I'm sick of POAS and praying each time for a second line... staring at it, just hoping it will show up. Maybe it's the lighting/maybe there's something wrong with the test, maybe tomorrow, maybe tomorrow, wait another day. But nothing, not even a shadow.
Is it really to much to ask for? A little miracle of our own? It bothers me that people don't think babies are miracles, because each and every one of them are. There has to be so many things in place in order for a woman to become pregnant... I wish we could figure out my chemistry.
You grow up knowing that one day you'll finish school, move out, fall in love, get married and have children of your own. It hurts when that life long vision and expectations can't be met. Talk about feeling like a failure!
I'm not saying it will never happen. I'm just saying that sometimes it feels like it won't. You all know what I'm saying anyways.

So now that I've got that off my chest, it's time to move on! I do feel better now actually. Blogging rocks! haha.

***

Going to see my father tomorrow, my mum's actually coming with me, I hope the day goes well. It can be iffy sometimes.

Here's to hoping my temp stays up up up! Gunna go, heading to bed. Take care!

TTYL
XOXO

6dpiui

Hi ladies, just a quicky tonight.
Symptoms include a couple of sharp cramps, and some light ones, but not as many as before. I was good most of the day but got tired at around 3pm. Temps at 98.0.

We have our God-duaghter over tonight, she's just over 2 and its the first time we've had her overnight. We had dinner, I got out the sparkle markers and some construction paper, sparkles and stickers and we went nuts hehe. She had fun and wanted to keep going, but it was definatley bath time. She was covered in sparkles.
She fell asleep on David... yep he fell asleep too. I wish my camera had batteries, it would have been an awesome picture.

Drinking more water makes you pee A LOT more lol.

So I have a longer post coming in the next few days. But I have to fly for now.

TTYL
XOXO

5dpiui

David brought me a long stem red rose home this morning, with a balloon and a coffee. It was sweet. He liked his card and teddy.

Today one of my best friends B got engaged!! I AM SO HAPPY FOR HER! The ring is exactly the one she chose and this is her fav. holiday so she was very happy he did it today! I'm so happy for them. Awww!:)

5DPIUI symptoms, cramping (a little burning type feeling as well), and very tired and that about does it. lol I've had some back 'cramps' as well which has been odd. I took my temp this morning it was 98.0 F.

So that's all for now. I've been super tired so I'm gunna go have a shower and get to bed early.

TTYL
XOXO

4dpiui

So tomorrow is V-day. I got DH a card that stands 2ft tall lol, it's huge. It was a trick to get it into the house after the gym tonight, glad he was sitting on the right couch so he couldn't see me come in. I slipped into the washroom when I came in and put it in the cupboard under the sink. I also got him a little red teddybear/devil with a heart and some candies. I'll fill it all out and leave it on the table for him for when he comes home in the morning. That should put a smile on his face. :)

Well I'm taking a break from dishes to enter my blog, my hands are kinda wrinkly hehe. I watched American Idol tonight and was pleased with the people they voted to continue. I look forward to seeing the season! It's always funny the show after they get their teeth whitened, cause you can always tell hehe. I have my favorites already too... Amanda is right at the top! I can't remember the names of the others yet. There are about 3 that I really like.

Well, symptoms today include, slight abdominal swelling and have light cramping on my right side, still very tired... also severe moodiness; I think I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I walked outside and got angry instantly because of the snow. I left for work late, the car had now windshield wiper fluid, and the wiper got stuck in the middle of the windsheild. I get to work and half the people I talk to on the phone are ignorant/mean, and the people I work with are all immature little teenagers who haven't seemed to have left highschool. The girly girl crap of whispering about someone right after they leave a room is driving me MAD. I hate that back stabbing, talk to them all sweet and nice to the face stuff... grrr.

So I gave my puppy a hair cut tonight, she needed a trim. I gotta take her back and get her face trimmed as I'm too afraid to do it. She gets fixed for sure on march 6th, we are also getting her microchipped.

Well, off I go to finish the dishes and sign the huge V-day card for David. Take care ladies and Happy V-Day!

TTYL
XOXO

3dpiui with snow now... more snow, yuck lol

Well, it finally got a little warmer today, upto -8 or so now, not sure what the wind chill is, I just know it's bloody cold. Now that its warmed up, the snow is falling, we are apparently expecting 10cm's. Which wouldn't be so bad accept there's like an inch of ice under all of this new snow... awww well, only another month and a bit and it should be warmer!

So symptoms today include, bloating, sleepiness and feeling a little down. I had minimal cramps in the morning. I tested for the hcg trigger, and the test is negative already.

So now I am trying to keep my head from being negative about this cycle, as I'm moving into that "this will never work" realm. Not a good outlook lol. I was actually feeling REALLY positive the day of the IUI, but now I don't really notice any body changes or anything, very similar to the last IUI. I am doing my best to keep my mind busy, but apparently it's not entirley working hehe.
Implantation should happen in 3 days from now. I kinda hope to get some kind of 'feeling' if it implanted or not. I really don't want to do the injectables if I don't have too.

OMG I almost forgot to mention... I LOST 2.6 pounds this last week! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY ME! Yahoo!!! It felt good to see the scale this weke hehe. Hopefully I can follow the trend of losing!

I think that's about it, I'm gunna get back to American Idol, Hollywood week. Take care ladies!

TTYL
XOXO

2dpiui and counting!

So Here we are at 2dpiui.

Symptoms include:
Some very light cramping, bloating, little gasy. Impatient, very sleepy all day, and tender breasts. I tested for hcg from trigger shot, light positive.

So not to much to talk about really. The weather here is freezing cold! It's -19, with wind chill, it feels like -30... YOUCH! Poor DH has to work out in that weather. I feel bad for him.

I'm really tired so it's a short post today. Take care all.

TTYL
XOXO

IUI experience n stuff...(1 Day Post IUI)

Hi ladies.
We had a very busy weekend, but it was nice to see our friends and have my bro/SIL/niece over. I visited dad today and dropped off a V-day card, I also brought coffe nd his favorite donut, he was happy. It was actually a VERY god visit, we talked and had mature converstion. I wish every visit went as nicely as todays did.

Here goes my IUI story...
We got to the office a little early I signed in and took a seat. the office filled with many other couples having an IUI the same day as we were. The Dr. was the one doing the proceedures which I was relieved about.
So the nurse came and called our names she took us to a little room decorated with pictures of native people, I'm guessing Mother and Father. There was of course a fertility statue (as there is in every room I've been in there), and a small piece of amethyst, there was no music this time though. So I got undressed and got up on my table. David and I waited only a few minutes and the Dr came in. The first thing I noticed was the light attached to his head, LOL. MAN did I have one liners going through my head... "Okay, I'm goin' in, if I'm not back in ten minutes send a search party!". Or "whistle while you work, doo do doo do do" LOL. I of course kept them to myself. Our Dr. is such a nice guy! We asked a couple questions, one was; how do you know if the Ovidrel worked? He said it works 99% of the time. I still wasn't to re-assured, but I do believe I ovulated... and it did work.
So he went ahead and we verified Dh's boyz n girlz (LOLOLOL), I told them to do their thing, swim little ones, swim!! lol. Before the proceedure the Dr gave us the option of going forward with injectables next time if this IUI fails, which I am very excited about! He said we have been trying for long enough and gave us the option of injectables, and I, of course, accepted! So that's the next step! YAY, we love our Dr! He then completed the IUI proceedure and continued on to the many other couples requiring IUI's that day.

My Personal experience, may include items not appropriate for some lol, reader discretion is advised!
Day of IUI... this time I had cramping afterwards. For the first time I was happy to have cramps LOL. At least SOMETHING happened this time hehe. The cramps were light-medium (left side) then it turned into almost a light burning cramp. Lots of movements in abdomin as well. My nipples were however getting very tender, and very heavy. Just after the cramping, (TMI FOR SOME, LOOK OUT!) I had some fluid and a little bit of mucus release which was different than before as well. I hope these are good signs, I guess we'll see. I was feeling rather swollen/bloated. My lower back was sore as well - but it was a busy day with my nieces bday party, setup and such. I have been short tempered but overall content. Tested to see if Ovidrel would be picked up on hpt, it came back very light positive.

1DPIUI... light cramping only once or twice. Felt pretty good little tummy ache, felt nauseated, (but my niece had been throwing up each night this weekend and my SIL did last night, so maybe I caught that bug lol). My Breasts are feeling more heavy and my nipples are really rather tender. I was impatiant off and on but overall okay. I did HPT to see if it would pick up the 250mg's of Ovidrel, test was light positive.

I think that's all. I do have a question though. who has been on injectales, and what are they? What's the proceedure?

I should go, work in the morning and I'm rather sleepy. I'll catch up with everyone tomorrow evening as I've run out of time. Take care!

TTYL
XOXO

1dpiui! Here we are on the 2ww!

I'm joining Browneyedgirl on the 2ww! Today is 1dpiui!
I also got my piano yesterday thanx to a bunch of really GREAT friends! My childhood dream of owning a piano has finally come true. Now we're just trying to find out how old it is, where it was made ect. My brother emailed some places for me. So hopefully we'll get a response.

The IUI went well, and I'll blog about it tomorrow as I have family over tonight and I like privacy while I blog and don't want to be rude to my guests. So I'll update on everyones blogs tomorrow and update my own. Take care!

TTYL
XOXO

I triggered!

I triggered tonight, so saturdays IUI day... wish me luck! She said the lining looked much better today, really good actually, and my little follie was at 20mm! I unfortunatley didn't surge on my own, so they suggested the shot this time. I was kinda hoping not to have to take it, but its done now and at least I know this cycle is a go ahead!
Getting the shot from the pharmacy was almost tragic! We got there with 40 minutes to spare before the place was to close, and the open sign wasn't on and the lights where mostly out, David and I nearly had a cow right there! I got out of the van as fast as I could, heart pounding so hard, sick feeling in my stomache thinking we lost our chances, and he pharmacist was still there... JUST. He was getting his coat on to leave. Apparently he had an emergency and couldn't find a pharmacist to fill in for him. Luckily we got there JUST in time, he unlocked the door and got my scrpit for me, it was already in the system and everything. Took David and I a while to calm our pumping hearts after that one, sheesh.

Gypsy had her last puppy shots tonight! She graduated! I have her certificate showing she's legal and her tag as well, now I can register her with the city, and once she's fixed we can goto the dog park so she can play with other K9's!

So I've added those ghost shots below... let me know what ya think! We're very proud of these pic's.

Here's a regular copy of the pic...



Again, only lighter!



Smaller?



Here's a colored copy of the pic... incase ya didn't catch them in the first one...



And here they are again, I drew a line around them... incase the other two weren't good enough. The figure on the right seems to be looking back at the building, (away from the camera), he's bald and wearing a suit with a white dress shirt under it. And the one right in front has arms stretched towards D as he took the picture. In the original sized photo, it looks like the person in front has an open neck white short with a sports jacket, sholder length hair, wearing a choker-necklace with somekind of medallian. I'de be interested in your comments!



K, well that's it for now. I have to get to bed, I'm sleepy. Take care all. I'll let ya's know how it goes Sat. I think I'm going to keep a detailed record this time of each dpo. I'de like it for my records.

K, off to bed with me!

TTYL
XOXO