15 wks 6 days

Babe is moving moving!! I LOVE IT! Today I really felt him/her movin' around in there. yaaaay! The heart beat is getting much easier to pick up on the monitor as well. So Happy right now with being pregnant! :):)
I went today and did blood work for the second part of my IPS screening, and a follow up for the thyroid med's. So I find out about the thyroid med's on tuesday, makin' sure its doing its job. I feel better, so I'm thinking it's working.
Hope you're all well.

TTYS
XOXO

Me at 15 wks 2 days

15wks

I went to Motherhood Maternity and I got an awesome deal on two MAT shirts. I got both for $15! I also picked Maera up an "Im a big sister" book, it was $10. So over all I got a good deal really!
I also got my hair done. I needed a bit of a pick me up I think for a change. It did help me feel better.
I can definatley feel babe moving around in there every now and again, such an awesome feeling. Can't wait until s/he gets bigger. I kind of want to find out the sex of this baby, but I don't want to be disapointed that I found out. It's hard to explain. It's just that it would be very helpful to find out for money reasons, ya know? Buying clothes and making sure we're prepared Ect. I have until March 15th to decide, cause that's when my next u/s is. Woohoo, I`ll be 19 wks at that point! Woot! :):)

K, well that`s about it for now.
TTYS
XOXO

Here`s a pic from my 13 wk U S

14wks 3 or so days, very angry, emotional breakdown

So there are times that I am totally just beyond any happy emotions at all. Today I put laundry in, which is in the basement and I have to walk past the cat littler to get to it. Well, I have been after David to do the cat litter and today it was so full of piss and shit that the cats had started shitting under the table down there and in the laundry room. So I went ahead and changed one of the cat litters.... mopped the floor, scrubbed all the stains up. This was after working all day, coming home and cooking supper. I am not supossed to change the cat littler, he knows this. Why is it so hard for him to do ONE simple fucking task??? I'm sooo upset, angry and disapointed. Like he doesn't even care enough to change the fucking cat litter... that's how it feels anyways. Not only that, but there were like 4 garbage bags of previous cat little piled under the table, and like 3 old cat litter boxes that had been filled with used litter, which he hadn't brought up and outside. He fucking collects it. And last week... just last week I told him to make sure he brought the cat little up and outside with him because Dougs apartment is down there and it must smell. He said, yep yep I will... Well he didn't even bother doing that for god sake! Like what the hell is his problem? So I also carried 4 bags of that upstairs. Now I know I can't carry the boxes so I'm not even gunna try.
Then I always end up being the bitch, or the one he's angry with. Fuckin' can't win for losing around here.
Ya know, he stays up until 2:30am on work nights watching movies and playing games online. I've been at him for years, not over exagerating... YEARS to go through the piles and garbage bags full of clothes he doesn't use or that are ruined anyways and throw stuff out that he doesn't use. He gets to  certain point and stops, EVERYTIME. There are still piles of his clothes everywhere. OMG.
I think of the baby growing inside me and I am so disapointed because like I can't be happy. All I can think of is how much work life is going to be when he/she gets here and I'm the only one doing everything.
I feel like my life is shit. I'm angry because I've wanted to feel happy about this baby, and I can't seem to feel happy... about anything actually. It would be nice o shar this experience with someone who actually honestly gave a damn. Most days I float along. I miss my mom a lot, especially right now.
I really want to curl up into a ball and cry right now. Might actually just do that.

TTYS
XOXO

13 wks

Officially 13 wks pregnant. I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism, I've already been to the doctor and have started synthroid. I get checked basically every 4 wks to check my hormone level for that. I'll robably need to take the hormone replacement for the rest of my life. But they'll check that at the end of the pregnancy. As long as there are no effects to baby I'm okay with whatever.
I go tuesday for my second u/s. It's the checking for malformities.. downs, ect... I'm nervous, but remain positive! :) I am looking forward to seeing the baby and hearing it's heartbeat. I'll updated after the apointment.
Take care for now.

TTYS
XOXO

to many goodbyes

Today we had to put Daylight down. he was our very first pet. He was ten yrs old. He had stopped eating/drinking and lost a lot of weight. We did blood work that came back fine, and dr did an xray with no charge and found that he had somekind of heart deffect, something about it being small.... we couldn't even see the heart on the xray due to all the fluid in his lungs. Basically he was suffering heart failure and was drowning. I of course put him down, as it was only the right thing to do.
Everyone who knew Daylight loved him... like not ever was there one person who came for a second visit and didn't ask for him. He was such a lovely cat. He used to sing with me, and he was the loudest at purring. He was such a lover, loved cuddles and snuggles and loved to play. He loved the other pets too. Used to clean Gypsy (our dog) and the other cats. I'm going to miss him dearly.