Things are really busy around here, sorry for the delay between postings. Maera's surgery is this next tuesday, bachelorette party this saturday, wedding next saturday. Then I go back to work, then move my mom in here in the middle of october... and move my brother to his gf's place. I started moving some of my moms stuff in tonight, I'm having a hard time finding room for all the kitchen stuff...
I'm feeling really overwhelmed, but I'm sure I'll feel better after next week is done... WAY to much going on in just a week. I may not be on until after next week, but I shall try and update after Maera's surgery.
Take care all
TTYS
XOXO
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Today I accomplished painting three closet doors, which I'll have to do the third coat on tomorrow. Tomorrow morning I have to go back to the dental surgeon to see about some bone that has broken through my gum due to them removing my wisdom tooth and the one next to it. I dunno what they're going to do about it... I hate that mouth freezing stuff.
They're also coming to fix my furnace tomorrow evning which will be good, right now when its on it runs water everywhere. We've had to rip out carpet in the basement, so now its all crappy down there.
We need to get new caropet for the basement before my mom moves in. She's taking over the living room upstairs and the back bedroom. We're going to complete the wood floor installation in her bedroom this weekend.
David won't be home until saturday late afternoon which sux ass. We have a wedding at 1:30 saturday that he won't be able to attend due to work. So Maera and I are going by ourselves. I feel like a single parent.
K, that's it for tonight. Take care!
TTYS
They're also coming to fix my furnace tomorrow evning which will be good, right now when its on it runs water everywhere. We've had to rip out carpet in the basement, so now its all crappy down there.
We need to get new caropet for the basement before my mom moves in. She's taking over the living room upstairs and the back bedroom. We're going to complete the wood floor installation in her bedroom this weekend.
David won't be home until saturday late afternoon which sux ass. We have a wedding at 1:30 saturday that he won't be able to attend due to work. So Maera and I are going by ourselves. I feel like a single parent.
K, that's it for tonight. Take care!
TTYS
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
OMG I'm so sad lately. There's so many stressful things happening in my life right now its hard to keep everything in order. I broke down today, really bad... I couldn't stop crying for an hour or so, I'm so tired now.
I went and had a family meeting with my mom, one brother and his gf. They've decided to move to the same town as me, we had to go speak with ODSP to see about getting his cheque fixed and see what they could do to help him move on his own (like first & last ect). So we did get something accomplished today. (Mom's moving in with us in oct.)
I came home and all my drains where backing up, I have a really bad runny faucet downstairs and one upstairs. I had to call an old family friend to come over and fix it, he's a plumber now. So he got the drains cleared and put a new washer in the one tap to temporarily stop the major run we had going on. He says it needs to be replaced ect. He'll be sending the bill to the in-laws and talking to them about coming back to replace the taps ect.
I tried doing a load of laundry after he left and neither the washer nor the dryer worked... so I called him and he was nice enough to come back (david is on the rd and won't be back until the weekend)... he said he didn't do anything, but they both work now. We were both a little flabergasted as to what happened there. I think he turned the breaker on and off and that made it work...
So I'm gunna go and see if it completed the washing.
There's so much more to blog about... in time.
TTYS
XOXO
I went and had a family meeting with my mom, one brother and his gf. They've decided to move to the same town as me, we had to go speak with ODSP to see about getting his cheque fixed and see what they could do to help him move on his own (like first & last ect). So we did get something accomplished today. (Mom's moving in with us in oct.)
I came home and all my drains where backing up, I have a really bad runny faucet downstairs and one upstairs. I had to call an old family friend to come over and fix it, he's a plumber now. So he got the drains cleared and put a new washer in the one tap to temporarily stop the major run we had going on. He says it needs to be replaced ect. He'll be sending the bill to the in-laws and talking to them about coming back to replace the taps ect.
I tried doing a load of laundry after he left and neither the washer nor the dryer worked... so I called him and he was nice enough to come back (david is on the rd and won't be back until the weekend)... he said he didn't do anything, but they both work now. We were both a little flabergasted as to what happened there. I think he turned the breaker on and off and that made it work...
So I'm gunna go and see if it completed the washing.
There's so much more to blog about... in time.
TTYS
XOXO
Monday, August 31, 2009
If it doesn't rain it pours....
Well I miscarried, it started friday... had my BETA today and my level is at 0. I'm glad its done.
During my time away my mother had to call 911 for herself, she had rapid heartbeat again. Now she's on oxygen for the rest of her life. She'll now be moving in here so I can take care of her until she passes I guess. I'm so very sad, which makes what I'm feeling sound cheap. Part of me says I don't want to live the next chapter of my life. We knew it was coming... this part... but it doesn't make it any easier. And I have to be the strong one and take care of her, which I want to, because she took care of me. I just don't know how I'm going to handle things.
2 hrs later...
I just had a friend stop by for a coffee, she was helpful in helping me sort some things out in my brain. She's an old friend, actually we used to call each other sister because we grew up together. We just re-united when david and I moved back to town. I said that I felt bad because she came back into my life when the shits gunna hit the fan, and she laughed and said what are sister for. It's nice to know we can still talk like we used to... specially after a good 13-15 years. It's nice to be reconnecting with her.
I have much more I'de like to write about, but after my visit I'm feeling pretty good, so we'll leave that wound closed until it opens again.
That's it for now.
TTYS
XOXO
During my time away my mother had to call 911 for herself, she had rapid heartbeat again. Now she's on oxygen for the rest of her life. She'll now be moving in here so I can take care of her until she passes I guess. I'm so very sad, which makes what I'm feeling sound cheap. Part of me says I don't want to live the next chapter of my life. We knew it was coming... this part... but it doesn't make it any easier. And I have to be the strong one and take care of her, which I want to, because she took care of me. I just don't know how I'm going to handle things.
2 hrs later...
I just had a friend stop by for a coffee, she was helpful in helping me sort some things out in my brain. She's an old friend, actually we used to call each other sister because we grew up together. We just re-united when david and I moved back to town. I said that I felt bad because she came back into my life when the shits gunna hit the fan, and she laughed and said what are sister for. It's nice to know we can still talk like we used to... specially after a good 13-15 years. It's nice to be reconnecting with her.
I have much more I'de like to write about, but after my visit I'm feeling pretty good, so we'll leave that wound closed until it opens again.
That's it for now.
TTYS
XOXO
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Today = Meh!
I think I'm getting more and more depressed as time goes on here. I'm doing my best to stay positive and keep myself busy until this is all over with. But today I found that I couldn't go onto my normal message boards to chat because I don't want to bombard them with my depression. There are a couple of the ladies who got bfp's the last two days, I am very happy for them, and I wish I could express it a little better, but I can't help but cry when I read their posts... because just last week I wrote the same post.
My mom called today, I usually talk to her every day, I missed yesterday and she ended up calling me today before I could call her. She wanted to know if I was okay... I just told her I was keeping myself busy. She asked if I started to bleed yet and I said no, she didn't really know what to say after that. I love my mom, she asks the right questions at the right time in the right tone. I should call her back again befor bed.
David will finally be home sometime tonight after being gone with work. It'll be nice to have him home. We leave tomorrow for our trip. I am looking forward to it, but the other part of me hopes I don't bleed now until I'm back home on sunday, I'de like to try and 'forget' for a day, at least for a nice visit and to enjoy the cousins wedding.
Today I did some house work, including de-weeding a small garden out front and the weeds from the sidewalk/driveway. Maera was outside with me in her bouncy thing and she was having a hoot, screaming and laughing and doing raspberries. She was funny with her feet on the grass, took her a minute to relax and start bouncing hehe. She's a sweetheart. And it was nice getting my hands in the earth, even if it was weeds hehe.
Well ladies, that's it for now. I won't be back now until sunday or monday. Take care
TTYS
XOXO
My mom called today, I usually talk to her every day, I missed yesterday and she ended up calling me today before I could call her. She wanted to know if I was okay... I just told her I was keeping myself busy. She asked if I started to bleed yet and I said no, she didn't really know what to say after that. I love my mom, she asks the right questions at the right time in the right tone. I should call her back again befor bed.
David will finally be home sometime tonight after being gone with work. It'll be nice to have him home. We leave tomorrow for our trip. I am looking forward to it, but the other part of me hopes I don't bleed now until I'm back home on sunday, I'de like to try and 'forget' for a day, at least for a nice visit and to enjoy the cousins wedding.
Today I did some house work, including de-weeding a small garden out front and the weeds from the sidewalk/driveway. Maera was outside with me in her bouncy thing and she was having a hoot, screaming and laughing and doing raspberries. She was funny with her feet on the grass, took her a minute to relax and start bouncing hehe. She's a sweetheart. And it was nice getting my hands in the earth, even if it was weeds hehe.
Well ladies, that's it for now. I won't be back now until sunday or monday. Take care
TTYS
XOXO
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Bitter sweet
Thanx everyone for your wonderful comments. I appreciate it. I also appreciate you being open with your experiences, and sharing them with me. It really does help. I am still waiting for something to happen... I felt sick today, all day basically, but nothing else is happening.
I had fun with Maera, and ended up doing laundry aaaaall day. I went through all her clothes too and put them in the size appropriate boxes so it'll be easier for when she gets to those sizes. She learned how to talk (well you know, dadada mamama ect), into her toy microphone today. I also noticed that she's starting to be able to re-stack those rings on the ring toy. I'm so proud of her.
We're going to my brothers place this weekend for 4 days, and a wedding just an hour away from his place. I'm looking forward to the 'vacation'. It'll be nice to spend some time with him and my sis-in-law and neice. K, well that's about it for now. Thanx again everyone for your understanding!
TTYS
XOXO
P.S = below I have added how the miscarriage is effecting my emotions and such and will hopefully making it a daily blog, as this blog is a great healing tool. So don't feel obligated to read any further, its actually just for my own personal healing. But thanx for tunning in to the above!! And thanx again for your previous messages of support.
~~
After some pondering... how I'm truly feeling inside... (You may not want to read this.)
I believe things happen for a reason.
It takes a lot of the 'right things' to happen all at once to create life, trust me I know from experience! For those who believe it just happens, like la di da... you're 100% wrong. So ya, I'm a little pissed off that I am miscarrying. I'm angry because the universe can be cruel and things like this can happen.
This was supossed to complete my family... 9 months from now I am supossed to be holding a healthy, crying baby, wrapped in those hospital blankets, slowly attaching him/her to my breast to feed for the very first time as my husband and I fall in love with our second child. I'm supossed to be buying those cute shirts for Maera that say "I'm a big sister". I'm supossed to be calling mom and crying because I'm sooo tired, but smiling inside... always smiling... But nope... I guess not yet. I HATE waiting. And you know what REALLY sucks, is that now... NOW I have to WAIT to miscarry... what a sick joke! What a stupid sick joke!
I'm am also angry because now I have to spread my legs open and get injected with my husbands sperm from basically a total stranger, after taking foreign chemicals to MAKE my body do what its supossed to do and create an egg with which the sperm is supossed to unite and create life. Because I have something called PCOS things are a little more complicated. Lord knows how many more times I get to look forward to that in order to get pregnant. I sure wish it would 'just happen'. I'm sure there will be another time when I will get pregnant and have a healthy baby, but for right now... right this minute I'm pissed... and I'm aloud to be. Ya know I will work just as hard for our second child... and HAVE worked just as hard... and now I'm miscarrying it.
You know I am blessed to have Maera, and I don't need to be reminded of that at all. Everytime I look at her beautiful face I know how blessed I am. Everytime I change a stinky bum, or cuddle because she's fallen down after trying to stand up on her own, every night when I look in on her before my bed time... I love her with all my heart and that will never change. She took 6 long years of pokes, prods, 3 different sets of dr's, a dozen chemical cocktails and a lot of heartache, waiting, more waiting and yearning. I am glad I did it or she wouldnt be here; So Yes I know I am blessed. I just wish it was easier for me to get pregnant! I feel more blessed than I believe anyone else can understand... accept for those who have been where I have. I love her with every ounce of myself. And I remember when I was growing up what it was like to have my brothers to play with and hang out with, talk to if I needed it. There was always someone there for me, my age, David had the same thing... and we want that for Maera.
This misscarriage does NOT go along with my life plan. I was supossed to get pregnant before I went back to work in october, to collect enough hours to get back on MAT leave for when I gave birth. Maera would have had a sybling that was around her age... I would have had the baby before I hit 35. And in 5 years from now I could have started schooling for a career.
I guess its time to formulate a new plan...
Truly, right now my heart aches
~~~~~
I had fun with Maera, and ended up doing laundry aaaaall day. I went through all her clothes too and put them in the size appropriate boxes so it'll be easier for when she gets to those sizes. She learned how to talk (well you know, dadada mamama ect), into her toy microphone today. I also noticed that she's starting to be able to re-stack those rings on the ring toy. I'm so proud of her.
We're going to my brothers place this weekend for 4 days, and a wedding just an hour away from his place. I'm looking forward to the 'vacation'. It'll be nice to spend some time with him and my sis-in-law and neice. K, well that's about it for now. Thanx again everyone for your understanding!
TTYS
XOXO
P.S = below I have added how the miscarriage is effecting my emotions and such and will hopefully making it a daily blog, as this blog is a great healing tool. So don't feel obligated to read any further, its actually just for my own personal healing. But thanx for tunning in to the above!! And thanx again for your previous messages of support.
~~
After some pondering... how I'm truly feeling inside... (You may not want to read this.)
I believe things happen for a reason.
It takes a lot of the 'right things' to happen all at once to create life, trust me I know from experience! For those who believe it just happens, like la di da... you're 100% wrong. So ya, I'm a little pissed off that I am miscarrying. I'm angry because the universe can be cruel and things like this can happen.
This was supossed to complete my family... 9 months from now I am supossed to be holding a healthy, crying baby, wrapped in those hospital blankets, slowly attaching him/her to my breast to feed for the very first time as my husband and I fall in love with our second child. I'm supossed to be buying those cute shirts for Maera that say "I'm a big sister". I'm supossed to be calling mom and crying because I'm sooo tired, but smiling inside... always smiling... But nope... I guess not yet. I HATE waiting. And you know what REALLY sucks, is that now... NOW I have to WAIT to miscarry... what a sick joke! What a stupid sick joke!
I'm am also angry because now I have to spread my legs open and get injected with my husbands sperm from basically a total stranger, after taking foreign chemicals to MAKE my body do what its supossed to do and create an egg with which the sperm is supossed to unite and create life. Because I have something called PCOS things are a little more complicated. Lord knows how many more times I get to look forward to that in order to get pregnant. I sure wish it would 'just happen'. I'm sure there will be another time when I will get pregnant and have a healthy baby, but for right now... right this minute I'm pissed... and I'm aloud to be. Ya know I will work just as hard for our second child... and HAVE worked just as hard... and now I'm miscarrying it.
You know I am blessed to have Maera, and I don't need to be reminded of that at all. Everytime I look at her beautiful face I know how blessed I am. Everytime I change a stinky bum, or cuddle because she's fallen down after trying to stand up on her own, every night when I look in on her before my bed time... I love her with all my heart and that will never change. She took 6 long years of pokes, prods, 3 different sets of dr's, a dozen chemical cocktails and a lot of heartache, waiting, more waiting and yearning. I am glad I did it or she wouldnt be here; So Yes I know I am blessed. I just wish it was easier for me to get pregnant! I feel more blessed than I believe anyone else can understand... accept for those who have been where I have. I love her with every ounce of myself. And I remember when I was growing up what it was like to have my brothers to play with and hang out with, talk to if I needed it. There was always someone there for me, my age, David had the same thing... and we want that for Maera.
This misscarriage does NOT go along with my life plan. I was supossed to get pregnant before I went back to work in october, to collect enough hours to get back on MAT leave for when I gave birth. Maera would have had a sybling that was around her age... I would have had the baby before I hit 35. And in 5 years from now I could have started schooling for a career.
I guess its time to formulate a new plan...
Truly, right now my heart aches
~~~~~
Monday, August 24, 2009
21 dpo BETA
Well, I am definatley going to miscarry, it's in the works now. My HCG level was at 38.4 today... I hope it goes quickly so I can move on. I know that may sound cold to some, but I would rather it be over with now.
I'm guessing it's a chemical pregnancy due to the fact the numbers are going down, and I hope I just get a heavy period. I don't want a D&C, although that hasn't been suggested by the dr's, I've googled it and it sounds just horrible.
It's sad to know this baby would have completed our family, and now all the hopes that were built up so quickly have come crashing down. What a roller coaster of emotions this month after all the negative hpt's, then the low BETA'S. I'll be glad when its done. I'm tired of thinking about it to be honest.
I'm also glad that the universe didn't continue the pregnancy if there was chromosone problems, I wouldn't have wanted the baby to be born without a lung or with no limbs, that would have been cruel.
I am glad that the ppl we told have now been told I am miscarrying, cause let me tell you the thought of calling everyone and actually hearing them say 'I'm sorry' over and over again was hard. I didn't want to hear it. I don't want pitty either. This is all part of trying to start a family, even for women who don't have fertility problems.
Now I guess I'm part of the statistics reguarding miscarrying... what an odd way to look at it.
Well off I go to ponder... and wait to start bleeding. I wish it would just start so it could end.
I've wrapped my head around the situation in a healthy way. I have a lot going on in the next month or two so we'll be taking advantage of that and take a break from activley ttc with help.
That's all I got for now. Thanx for all the support ladies.
TTYS
XOXO
I'm guessing it's a chemical pregnancy due to the fact the numbers are going down, and I hope I just get a heavy period. I don't want a D&C, although that hasn't been suggested by the dr's, I've googled it and it sounds just horrible.
It's sad to know this baby would have completed our family, and now all the hopes that were built up so quickly have come crashing down. What a roller coaster of emotions this month after all the negative hpt's, then the low BETA'S. I'll be glad when its done. I'm tired of thinking about it to be honest.
I'm also glad that the universe didn't continue the pregnancy if there was chromosone problems, I wouldn't have wanted the baby to be born without a lung or with no limbs, that would have been cruel.
I am glad that the ppl we told have now been told I am miscarrying, cause let me tell you the thought of calling everyone and actually hearing them say 'I'm sorry' over and over again was hard. I didn't want to hear it. I don't want pitty either. This is all part of trying to start a family, even for women who don't have fertility problems.
Now I guess I'm part of the statistics reguarding miscarrying... what an odd way to look at it.
Well off I go to ponder... and wait to start bleeding. I wish it would just start so it could end.
I've wrapped my head around the situation in a healthy way. I have a lot going on in the next month or two so we'll be taking advantage of that and take a break from activley ttc with help.
That's all I got for now. Thanx for all the support ladies.
TTYS
XOXO
Saturday, August 22, 2009
19dpo BETA :(
Well I went for my third BETA today and it's not looking so good.
15dpo - 34.4
17dpo - 50.3
19dpo - 57.4 :(
They want me in for another test monday but I'm starting to lose hope. I'm pretty bummed out to say the least. The number should have doubled, or at least gone up another 60%.
TTYS
XOXO
15dpo - 34.4
17dpo - 50.3
19dpo - 57.4 :(
They want me in for another test monday but I'm starting to lose hope. I'm pretty bummed out to say the least. The number should have doubled, or at least gone up another 60%.
TTYS
XOXO
Thursday, August 20, 2009
17dpo
- oh the nausea!
- fatigue!
- cramping
Second BETA was in the 50's. DH took the call and didn't 'remember' the exact number. DOH! So I'll call tomorrow and get it. They did say the number was good but if I was feeling unsure I could go back for another BETA to re-assure myself. So I'm gunna take them up on that offer. I'll go back saturday for another blood draw.
They said they'd call to book my first U/S!!!! YAAAAY! :):):) I can't wait to hear the babies heartbeat!
TTYS
XOXO
- fatigue!
- cramping
Second BETA was in the 50's. DH took the call and didn't 'remember' the exact number. DOH! So I'll call tomorrow and get it. They did say the number was good but if I was feeling unsure I could go back for another BETA to re-assure myself. So I'm gunna take them up on that offer. I'll go back saturday for another blood draw.
They said they'd call to book my first U/S!!!! YAAAAY! :):):) I can't wait to hear the babies heartbeat!
TTYS
XOXO
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
16dpo
- Some cramping, tightening and full feeling in abdomin
- I've been tired
- heartburn isn't as bad as it was
When I told DH we were pregnant, he said "I told you not to pee on those damn sticks! They do nothing good for couples like us!" He's very very happy. We giggled together and smiled and laughed. Then he left for work :(. He'll be back tomorrow morning, which is good cause the basement flooded! He thinks its a problem with plumbing in the basement. I hope we don't have to pay for it. Argh!
I have to go for tonight, have to wake up at 6am and leave by 7:30am to pick mum up, then go for BETA, then back to town to take her to visit Dad, get a haircut and goto the doctors, then I have to drive her back to her city. lol, gunna be a busy day!
I'll catch up on your blogs tomorrow evening! :)
TTYS
XOXO
- I've been tired
- heartburn isn't as bad as it was
When I told DH we were pregnant, he said "I told you not to pee on those damn sticks! They do nothing good for couples like us!" He's very very happy. We giggled together and smiled and laughed. Then he left for work :(. He'll be back tomorrow morning, which is good cause the basement flooded! He thinks its a problem with plumbing in the basement. I hope we don't have to pay for it. Argh!
I have to go for tonight, have to wake up at 6am and leave by 7:30am to pick mum up, then go for BETA, then back to town to take her to visit Dad, get a haircut and goto the doctors, then I have to drive her back to her city. lol, gunna be a busy day!
I'll catch up on your blogs tomorrow evening! :)
TTYS
XOXO
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
15dpo, BETA test
IS POSITIVE HOLY SHIT!!!!!
34.4, I go back thursday for the next BETA!!! WOOHOO!!!
OMG - You should always listen to your guts. I totally thought I was pregnant, those damn pee sticks SUCK!!! I can't believe it, well I can... but YAAAAY! I'm not going crazy!!! :):):):):):):):) David and I are SUPER SUPER HAPPY!!!
That's all I can really say right now...
Oh EDD is April 25th, 2010 :):):):):)
TTYS
XOXO
34.4, I go back thursday for the next BETA!!! WOOHOO!!!
OMG - You should always listen to your guts. I totally thought I was pregnant, those damn pee sticks SUCK!!! I can't believe it, well I can... but YAAAAY! I'm not going crazy!!! :):):):):):):):) David and I are SUPER SUPER HAPPY!!!
That's all I can really say right now...
Oh EDD is April 25th, 2010 :):):):):)
TTYS
XOXO
Monday, August 17, 2009
14 dpo
No AF yet, but have had cramping & heartburn. Haven't gone for my BETA. I guess I will tomorrow so they have it on file, that way I can let them know we're taking a break as well.
Talked at, not to my BIL today. He actually stopped by. I told him how I felt, he was so pissed he walked out of the house, which is fine. He was actually speechless, specially when I told him his brother loved him and maybe he should treat him with the same respect back. Hope David's not gunna be pissed, but what's done is done and I feel a hell of a lot better!
I do want to move though. That way the house can't be 'held over our heads'by his brother anymore. There will be some changes around here now. I'm not gunna take their crap anymore. I'll move back to London, I wouldn't mind. I work there anyways, and so does David.
Apparently the neighbours house was broken into... at 4am. While they and their 2 kids were sleeping. Yep... whoever it was cut one of the screens out in the backyard in an X and crawled right in. Apparently their golden lab didn't bark or nothing... the perp's stole their wallets, and the jeep which s/he had to open the garage for. Hmm.. Sounds like the person who did it knows them, cause they knew where to go to get everything and the dog didn't bark at all. they're lucky they didn't get injured or anything, or the kids.
I'm greatful to have locks on my windows...
TTYS
XOXO
Talked at, not to my BIL today. He actually stopped by. I told him how I felt, he was so pissed he walked out of the house, which is fine. He was actually speechless, specially when I told him his brother loved him and maybe he should treat him with the same respect back. Hope David's not gunna be pissed, but what's done is done and I feel a hell of a lot better!
I do want to move though. That way the house can't be 'held over our heads'by his brother anymore. There will be some changes around here now. I'm not gunna take their crap anymore. I'll move back to London, I wouldn't mind. I work there anyways, and so does David.
Apparently the neighbours house was broken into... at 4am. While they and their 2 kids were sleeping. Yep... whoever it was cut one of the screens out in the backyard in an X and crawled right in. Apparently their golden lab didn't bark or nothing... the perp's stole their wallets, and the jeep which s/he had to open the garage for. Hmm.. Sounds like the person who did it knows them, cause they knew where to go to get everything and the dog didn't bark at all. they're lucky they didn't get injured or anything, or the kids.
I'm greatful to have locks on my windows...
TTYS
XOXO
Sunday, August 16, 2009
13 dpo
Well no AF yet, but I have had af like cramping and such. Had heartburn, little bit of nausea. Been tired the last 2 days as well. It was nice not to stress over hpt's today though. I'm supossed to go tomorrow to get my BETA done, but I think I'm going to wait until tuesday as it's just more convenient for me, I'll have gas money then, we're brooooke lol.
BIL/Family Rant:
When we moved in to this house, my BIL was moving out and left a crap load of garbage in the driveway, a bunch of his stuff in the house, hadn't cleaned the house in a VERY VERY long time (I'm not over exagerating, it was discusting!), and he left this huge ugly rusted metal storage container next to the garage. Now we live in a nice neighbourhood, and we've had a few neighbours complain about the bin and we've been trying to get him to have it removed. he keeps giving us excuses as to why its not moved, and keeps pulling a better than thow attitude with David. (lots of other stuff to which I won't get into). So today I finally had enough when David asked him again about the storage container, BIL said "Well I own the house...". K, but if he were to just rent this place to someone else, he would have had to clean up his own garbage, pack ALL of his shit AND get rid of that fugly bin... Anyways, I called him and asked him to come over to pick up some mail we had for them and told him I wanted to talk to him... I waited outside for 45 minutes, he was a no show. He was going to stop by before work and never did. What a prick! Wait til I do get to talk to him. Gawd he frustrates me!!! Hmm, one would think he knew what I was going to say... something like this "stop treating this house and us like your personal garbage dump... " I seriously think he knew what he was in for.
K had to get that off my chest.
I'm going to bed now...
TTYS
XOXO
BIL/Family Rant:
When we moved in to this house, my BIL was moving out and left a crap load of garbage in the driveway, a bunch of his stuff in the house, hadn't cleaned the house in a VERY VERY long time (I'm not over exagerating, it was discusting!), and he left this huge ugly rusted metal storage container next to the garage. Now we live in a nice neighbourhood, and we've had a few neighbours complain about the bin and we've been trying to get him to have it removed. he keeps giving us excuses as to why its not moved, and keeps pulling a better than thow attitude with David. (lots of other stuff to which I won't get into). So today I finally had enough when David asked him again about the storage container, BIL said "Well I own the house...". K, but if he were to just rent this place to someone else, he would have had to clean up his own garbage, pack ALL of his shit AND get rid of that fugly bin... Anyways, I called him and asked him to come over to pick up some mail we had for them and told him I wanted to talk to him... I waited outside for 45 minutes, he was a no show. He was going to stop by before work and never did. What a prick! Wait til I do get to talk to him. Gawd he frustrates me!!! Hmm, one would think he knew what I was going to say... something like this "stop treating this house and us like your personal garbage dump... " I seriously think he knew what he was in for.
K had to get that off my chest.
I'm going to bed now...
TTYS
XOXO
Saturday, August 15, 2009
12dpo and Anniversary!
Still a bfn, I'm not testing anymore. I go monday for BETA. I'm hoping AF gets here early so I can just put the rest of the emotions behind me. I'm so confused as to why it didn't work. I had great symptoms, my temps have been and are still up. I had 2 follies, I surged on my own and everything. We bd'd at the right time and had an IUI, so I dunno...
I have lots to concentrate on for the next couple months anyways, so I guess the break comes at a good time. I have Maera's surgery, my brothers wedding, Maera's 1st bday, Halloween... I'm also going back to work so it'll give me a chance to get into the swing of that.
Had a friend babysit last night so David and I could go on a date. Its our anniversary tomorrow, he's had to put up with me for 7 years so far! Hehe We still love each other lots, so we must be doing something right! :)
TTYS
XOXO
I have lots to concentrate on for the next couple months anyways, so I guess the break comes at a good time. I have Maera's surgery, my brothers wedding, Maera's 1st bday, Halloween... I'm also going back to work so it'll give me a chance to get into the swing of that.
Had a friend babysit last night so David and I could go on a date. Its our anniversary tomorrow, he's had to put up with me for 7 years so far! Hehe We still love each other lots, so we must be doing something right! :)
TTYS
XOXO
Friday, August 14, 2009
11dpo
Just a quick update - I did a digital test with second urine this morning and it said 'no', lol. So I guess the other test I'm looking at with the "+" is a false positive. Yep I'm devistated, I had great hopes for this cycle. My temp's are up and everything... but I don't think its going to work out for me. The test I took was a First Response, it picks up some rediculously low amount of hcg miu's... so I'de say I'm not pregnant.
Gotta go for now. TTYS
Gotta go for now. TTYS
Thursday, August 13, 2009
10dpo
- heartburn like mad the last week or so, damn!
- nausea
- I've been really happy, like to the point of crying at silly things.
- temp was up
- I tested... I watched the urine cross the test line and it actually changed to blue at the edge, right away. But that's it, just the very edge of the test line, very VERY thin line. And the blue dye tests are nutorious for false positives, so I still don't know what to think. Now that it's been there all day, there's no mistaking the think blue line... But I still don't know...
I think I'm driving my husband mad with all these hpt's lol. I'm so getting one of those digital tests tomorrow.
TTYS
XOXO
- nausea
- I've been really happy, like to the point of crying at silly things.
- temp was up
- I tested... I watched the urine cross the test line and it actually changed to blue at the edge, right away. But that's it, just the very edge of the test line, very VERY thin line. And the blue dye tests are nutorious for false positives, so I still don't know what to think. Now that it's been there all day, there's no mistaking the think blue line... But I still don't know...
I think I'm driving my husband mad with all these hpt's lol. I'm so getting one of those digital tests tomorrow.
TTYS
XOXO
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
9dpo and other stuff
So today I took maera to the pediatric surgeon to see about the bump over her eye and found out its called a facial dermoid cyst (bump over her left eye). They'll be removing it on september 22nd. I'm scared of my mind cause they have to put her under and she's only gunna be 10 months old. I know they know what they're doing but she's still my baby, ya know? I just gotta act like nothings wrong when I take Maera, cause I don't want her feeding off my stress. I think it will go okay. I'm going to bring her stuffed elephant with us, that way its there for her when she wakes up.
I bumped my return to work date to oct 3rd, that way I can be here for Maera. And that's the official end to my MAT leave anyways.
9dpo
- nausea, heartburn
- temp is still above coverline
- negative hpt X3 Uhg! I'm slowly losing hope cause I got a positive test with Maera at 9dpo, so now I'm feeling down... argh.
TTYS
XOXO
I bumped my return to work date to oct 3rd, that way I can be here for Maera. And that's the official end to my MAT leave anyways.
9dpo
- nausea, heartburn
- temp is still above coverline
- negative hpt X3 Uhg! I'm slowly losing hope cause I got a positive test with Maera at 9dpo, so now I'm feeling down... argh.
TTYS
XOXO
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
8dpo & updated pic's of Maera!
Here's my little princess. She's pulling herself up on things now, she's in the 95% for hieght, which means she'll be the tallest in her class in school probably. We expected that!! :):)
I love my baby girl!!! :):) I'm already thinking of ideas for her first birthday bash for oct 30th!! :):)
8dpo symptoms?
- temp is still above coverline
- had some tightening in abdomin and a burning type feeling
- heartburn, back ache
- I tested, waaaay to early I know, it was bfn. I remain positive for a successful cycle! :) I guess we'll find out in a few days!
TTYS
XOXO
I love my baby girl!!! :):) I'm already thinking of ideas for her first birthday bash for oct 30th!! :):)
8dpo symptoms?
- temp is still above coverline
- had some tightening in abdomin and a burning type feeling
- heartburn, back ache
- I tested, waaaay to early I know, it was bfn. I remain positive for a successful cycle! :) I guess we'll find out in a few days!
TTYS
XOXO
Monday, August 10, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
6dpo
- Sore back
- have had heartburn for the last few days as well
- emotional
- soome light cramping (nothing much realy
- temp is above coverline still
TTYS
XOXO
- have had heartburn for the last few days as well
- emotional
- soome light cramping (nothing much realy
- temp is above coverline still
TTYS
XOXO
Saturday, August 8, 2009
5dpo
- temp is above coverline
- had some cramping, tightening in abdomin
- nausea (which could be due to the long drive today but ya never know)
- tender breasts
- little emotional
TTYS
XOXO
- had some cramping, tightening in abdomin
- nausea (which could be due to the long drive today but ya never know)
- tender breasts
- little emotional
TTYS
XOXO
Friday, August 7, 2009
4dpo
- some cm
- some cramping
- temp went up to 36.9 which is good.
- tender breasts
- peeing more
- vivid dreams
I have an early morning and long day tomorrow, take care for now ladies
TTYS
XOXO
- some cramping
- temp went up to 36.9 which is good.
- tender breasts
- peeing more
- vivid dreams
I have an early morning and long day tomorrow, take care for now ladies
TTYS
XOXO
Thursday, August 6, 2009
3dpo
Just a quick one tonight...
-cm - still have some lotion like cm
-cramping
-Temp isn't below my cover line on fertility friend, but its not high either so who knows.!
Heading out for now
TTYS
XOXO
-cm - still have some lotion like cm
-cramping
-Temp isn't below my cover line on fertility friend, but its not high either so who knows.!
Heading out for now
TTYS
XOXO
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
2dpo, 3dpo
Hi ladies.
Well not to much is happening really, some cramping on 2dpo, but not much really. Today I had some lotion like discharge (sorry tmi) and I felt a little swollen inside. My back has been sore and so have my breasts (really bad). That can be attributed to not breastfeeding Maera anymore as well... the milk may still be dispating.
I hate 2ww LOL. It's as bad as the wait at the end of pregnancy for something to happen!
Had a nice day out with mom.
We're really broke, it would be nice to hit the lottery... buuuuuut ya know that's not gunna happen hehe. I hate being stressed out about money. argh.
Off to bed, coffee with dad tomorrow. Take care ladies!
TTYS
XOXO
Well not to much is happening really, some cramping on 2dpo, but not much really. Today I had some lotion like discharge (sorry tmi) and I felt a little swollen inside. My back has been sore and so have my breasts (really bad). That can be attributed to not breastfeeding Maera anymore as well... the milk may still be dispating.
I hate 2ww LOL. It's as bad as the wait at the end of pregnancy for something to happen!
Had a nice day out with mom.
We're really broke, it would be nice to hit the lottery... buuuuuut ya know that's not gunna happen hehe. I hate being stressed out about money. argh.
Off to bed, coffee with dad tomorrow. Take care ladies!
TTYS
XOXO
Monday, August 3, 2009
1dpo
I surged on my own!!! I went for an iui this morning, we bd'd two night ago, my surge was yesterday, I had to follies, so I think our basis are covered for this cycle! So here I am again on the 2ww!
It was the other Dr that did this iui, it wasn't the nurse!! Although I like her, she's done 2 other iui's for me and both failed so... I'm glad it was the Dr.
I've had cramps on and off all day, which is good cause I had them with Maera as well... but not the other 2 iui's.
This is our last chance for a few months cause I go back to work sept 8th. And can't really go back and ask for time off to get pregnant again hehe. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
Off I go for tonight,
TTYS
XOXO
It was the other Dr that did this iui, it wasn't the nurse!! Although I like her, she's done 2 other iui's for me and both failed so... I'm glad it was the Dr.
I've had cramps on and off all day, which is good cause I had them with Maera as well... but not the other 2 iui's.
This is our last chance for a few months cause I go back to work sept 8th. And can't really go back and ask for time off to get pregnant again hehe. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
Off I go for tonight,
TTYS
XOXO
Friday, July 31, 2009
Went to the dental surgeon today, they took my blood preasure which was high and took an xray of my mouth. The dentist came back in and said he'd remove them today so I could make this cycle with the IUI. So I am hurting a little right now, two new holes in my mouth ehehe and a stitch. They also didn't charge my for the initial consultation... just the rest, so he saved me $60. Nice eh? I was happy. Surprised by their kindness and willingness to help. But I think they also understood how much it hurt. Plus if they could fix it there and then they must have figured why not?
I gotta go for now and put some ice on my face.
TTYS
XOXO
I gotta go for now and put some ice on my face.
TTYS
XOXO
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
wow
Hi ladies. I know I skipped a few days here, but I have an impacted tooth, and now have to see the dental surgeon friday to see about surgery. I have been on advil and tylenol 3's. On top of that I caught the flu... so I've been sick for 3-4 days. And now Maera is sick as well. I am feeling a bit better now though. I am however diapointed as it looks like this cycle is a bust for IUI due to the problem I am having with my teeth. The dentist (as I already know) suggests to have the teeth removed before I get pregnant again as I can't use pain killers or antibiotics when I'm pregnant.
My tooth first started to go at around 3 months pregnant with Maera, and now it's spreading. Man my head hurts from it. Hopefully we can get it taken care of swiftly so we can move on and do another IUI.
Maera is crawling forward now. It's to cute hehe. I have also moved her to formula due to the fact that she keeps biting my nipples during feedings and THAT KILLS, specially with her 5 sharp little razer teeth. I'm glad we made it 8 1/2 months with the breast feeding though. :) Specially when everyone told me I my not be able too! How's that for defying!! hehe
K, that's it for now ladies. Thanx for continuing to visit my blog, I appreciate the support.
TTYS
XOXO
My tooth first started to go at around 3 months pregnant with Maera, and now it's spreading. Man my head hurts from it. Hopefully we can get it taken care of swiftly so we can move on and do another IUI.
Maera is crawling forward now. It's to cute hehe. I have also moved her to formula due to the fact that she keeps biting my nipples during feedings and THAT KILLS, specially with her 5 sharp little razer teeth. I'm glad we made it 8 1/2 months with the breast feeding though. :) Specially when everyone told me I my not be able too! How's that for defying!! hehe
K, that's it for now ladies. Thanx for continuing to visit my blog, I appreciate the support.
TTYS
XOXO
Sunday, July 19, 2009
cd 1-2
Well BETA was negative. So here we go again! I have to call the clinic tomorrow as my period started last night very lightly at 11pm, so I don't know which day would be considered cd1, today or yesterday... I hope they can tell me.
Went to a wedding that was a 6 hour drive from here - Maera doesn't like staying in hotel rooms. We drove hom after the reception, well we left early, but Maera slept the entire way home thankfully. Made our trip home faster than our trip there. She was happy to be home today.
I hope all is well with everyone.
TTYS
XOXO
Went to a wedding that was a 6 hour drive from here - Maera doesn't like staying in hotel rooms. We drove hom after the reception, well we left early, but Maera slept the entire way home thankfully. Made our trip home faster than our trip there. She was happy to be home today.
I hope all is well with everyone.
TTYS
XOXO
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
12dpo
Well, today I've had some cramping but not much. I've been tired. I almost thru up last night right before bed. My hpt's are still negative and now I don't have anymore left, so I wait until friday for my BETA.
I really wish I didn't have to go through this to get pregnant, I'm so sick of being addicted to POAS, and obsessing over every little twinge and ache. ARGH.
I'm being extra hard on myself because I think this cycle is a bust. It was looking pretty good, but the tests keep saying nope you're not pregnant! Do it again!
Then I feel guilty because I have a beautiful daughter. But as humans we always want more right? Well one more in our case, then that's it. And the time factor is an issue for me as well... I'll be 35 next year...
I go back to work in september as well and I wanted to be pregnant before I went back as getting the time off to do the IUI would be difficult seeing as I would be returning from MAT leave.
We'll see. Sorry for the whining, but sometimes ya just gotta let it out to be able to move forward.
Anyways, take care ladies.
TTYS
XOXO
I really wish I didn't have to go through this to get pregnant, I'm so sick of being addicted to POAS, and obsessing over every little twinge and ache. ARGH.
I'm being extra hard on myself because I think this cycle is a bust. It was looking pretty good, but the tests keep saying nope you're not pregnant! Do it again!
Then I feel guilty because I have a beautiful daughter. But as humans we always want more right? Well one more in our case, then that's it. And the time factor is an issue for me as well... I'll be 35 next year...
I go back to work in september as well and I wanted to be pregnant before I went back as getting the time off to do the IUI would be difficult seeing as I would be returning from MAT leave.
We'll see. Sorry for the whining, but sometimes ya just gotta let it out to be able to move forward.
Anyways, take care ladies.
TTYS
XOXO
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
11dpo
Tired, cramps, sore breasts (But I am still breastfeeding). Sore back... that's it... temp was up to 36.9, hpt was negative.
I wish friday would hurry up and get here.
TTYS
XOXO
I wish friday would hurry up and get here.
TTYS
XOXO
Monday, July 13, 2009
9-10 dpo
Cramping, specially today, swelling in my abdomin... feels a lil like af... that hideous thing lol. Been moody, temp is back up to 36.7 (98.0). Sometimes it goes upto 37.0...
That's about it... oh, hpt were negative for the last 2 days.
TTYS
XOXO
That's about it... oh, hpt were negative for the last 2 days.
TTYS
XOXO
Saturday, July 11, 2009
7-8 dpo
Well, I have still been short on patience, little moody. Some cramps, just light light ones. Temp is staying up nicely. That's about it, I'm very sleepy.
TTYS
XOXO
TTYS
XOXO
Thursday, July 9, 2009
5-6 dpiui
Well I've peed lots, but don't really know if that's new or not. Today I have been really quick with no patience... SNAP Everything is annoying me. Had some twinges and stuff in abdomin but nothing uncomfy. Temp was 36.6 this morning... yesterday was 36.4... so it is going up, but it's not really staying stable... so we'll see I guess. I think part of my issue is that yesterday morning I had gotten up to use the washroom an hour or so prior to taking my temp. I have been making night trips to the washroom which is differnt for me... I'm hoping that's why my temp was wonky yesterday anyways. This morning I took my temp before my hour early bathroom trip.
Isaac was born on tuesday, 8 pounds 10 ounces, he's such a sweetheart, and S did an awesome job during labour & delivery, so did her dh! I'm so happy for them and little Ali, she's so excited to be a big sister! I'm excited to be their Godmom.
Anywho ladies, take care!
TTYS
XOXO
Isaac was born on tuesday, 8 pounds 10 ounces, he's such a sweetheart, and S did an awesome job during labour & delivery, so did her dh! I'm so happy for them and little Ali, she's so excited to be a big sister! I'm excited to be their Godmom.
Anywho ladies, take care!
TTYS
XOXO
Monday, July 6, 2009
3-4dpo
Hi ladies, just a quicky. I get to watch my god-son come into the world tomorrow!! I'm so excited!
Symptoms - just some light cramping, twinges ect. temp was 36.7 this morning... hoping it stays up there.
I'll be back wednesday to check out everyones updates.
TTYS
XOXO
Symptoms - just some light cramping, twinges ect. temp was 36.7 this morning... hoping it stays up there.
I'll be back wednesday to check out everyones updates.
TTYS
XOXO
Saturday, July 4, 2009
1-2dpo
Well, today I have a swelling feeling in my abdomin. I've also had some cramping, on the left side. Also had some discharge (sorry tmi) earlier. Temp was 36.4 this morning and my p test showed a light positive, lighter than yesterday.
I'm off to a house warming party, mmmm BBQ!
TTYL
XOXO
I'm off to a house warming party, mmmm BBQ!
TTYL
XOXO
Friday, July 3, 2009
dpo1, does today count if this was IUI day?
Well I had my IUI today. The boyz & gurlz were all mobile, count was above the call of duty, lol. Hopefully everything will pan out for us. I have slight cramping/swelling in abdomin which is a normal side effect to the hcg shot. I have had burning feeling in front and in my lower back. Some twinges.
HPT showing light positiven from hcg trigger.
Now the dreaded 2ww, hopefully it goes quick.
That's it for now, gotta fly. TC ladies
TTYS
XOXO
HPT showing light positiven from hcg trigger.
Now the dreaded 2ww, hopefully it goes quick.
That's it for now, gotta fly. TC ladies
TTYS
XOXO
Thursday, July 2, 2009
IUI in morning - quick update
Just a quick update for me. I triggered last night (an hour and a half late because I dropped the needle and it broke the end of the needle off. I ended up going to emergency to have them put the Ovidrel into a new needle for me, argh! It was the only thing open due to canada day). I go for my IUI tomorrow morning at 11am. Then my 2ww starts.
Apparently my RO follie grew to 20mm, but the LO didn't grow as well because they are only really relying on the follie from the RO.
Wish me luck for tomorrow!!!
I'll be back this weekend to update and see how everyone else is doing.
TTYS
XOXO
Apparently my RO follie grew to 20mm, but the LO didn't grow as well because they are only really relying on the follie from the RO.
Wish me luck for tomorrow!!!
I'll be back this weekend to update and see how everyone else is doing.
TTYS
XOXO
Sunday, June 28, 2009
WOOT!
I had three follies! 2 on the left, one of which isn't big enough to measure but the other is 10mm, and one on the right at 12mm! I go back tuesday to see how they've progressed! David is excited, so am I!! Yay I'm happy happy.
That's all for tonight, very sleepy.
TTYS
XOXO
That's all for tonight, very sleepy.
TTYS
XOXO
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
bring on the IUI!
Well I've completed my femara treatment for this cycle, and I go sunday for my follie check... here's to hopin'!!
I was reading Farah's blog and she had posted an interesting post, so here's mine...
I'm a mother, sister, daughter, wife.
I love everyone and sometimes that bites me in the butt...
I get used a lot and taken advantage of, and allow it to happen to a certain point
I am usually too honest.
I am a scorpio, and have many different spiritual/reigious beliefs.
I believe everyone is equal.
I love my pets, all 4 cats, the dog and the bird
I'm ttc #2 with IUI, this is what worked for my sweet daughter.
I'm still trying to figure life out
I look at the beauty in everything
I love to sing
I am arts fartsy
I don't know what I want to do when I grow up...
Some days I am afraid to face the world... weird eh?
K well that;s it for now I guess, tc all!
TTYS
XOXO
I was reading Farah's blog and she had posted an interesting post, so here's mine...
I'm a mother, sister, daughter, wife.
I love everyone and sometimes that bites me in the butt...
I get used a lot and taken advantage of, and allow it to happen to a certain point
I am usually too honest.
I am a scorpio, and have many different spiritual/reigious beliefs.
I believe everyone is equal.
I love my pets, all 4 cats, the dog and the bird
I'm ttc #2 with IUI, this is what worked for my sweet daughter.
I'm still trying to figure life out
I look at the beauty in everything
I love to sing
I am arts fartsy
I don't know what I want to do when I grow up...
Some days I am afraid to face the world... weird eh?
K well that;s it for now I guess, tc all!
TTYS
XOXO
Thursday, June 18, 2009
YAY!
Af is finally here... we're off to the races! I'm getting my prescription tomorrow for femera and I'll call the clinic! Man I hope I only have to do one IUI for a successful and healthy pregnancy. Here's to hoping!
That's all for now.
TTYL
XOXO
That's all for now.
TTYL
XOXO
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Still waiting
Still waiting for my cycle to start. I've completed my 10 days worth of Apri, hopefully things will get going shortly.
We're getting more comfortable in the new house.
Maera is doing really well.
I dunno what else to add right now, ttyl
xoxo
We're getting more comfortable in the new house.
Maera is doing really well.
I dunno what else to add right now, ttyl
xoxo
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Starting again!!
I had my SOFT apointment monday, I got all my scripts and am already started to get this cycle going. Dr said to do the same thing that worked with Maera... so wish us luck!
I am rather nervous, but looking forward to being pregnant again. We want 2 children, so after the baby is born D will be going through THE operation... no more after that for sure I guess.
My SIL was stunned when I told her we were trying again, hehe she didn't know what to say. We haven't told D's father, we'll just wait until we're pregnant. Some people may think it's too soon, but I'll be 35 next november, so I promised myself no kids after 35. This way Maera will have a great relationship with him/her as well. (I'm secretly hoping for a boy, but either will do.)
So day 1 of my 'APRI' was monday...
I'm slowly catching up on your blogs as I go. I don't even know if anyone checks my blog anymore it's been so long.
TTYS
XOXO
I am rather nervous, but looking forward to being pregnant again. We want 2 children, so after the baby is born D will be going through THE operation... no more after that for sure I guess.
My SIL was stunned when I told her we were trying again, hehe she didn't know what to say. We haven't told D's father, we'll just wait until we're pregnant. Some people may think it's too soon, but I'll be 35 next november, so I promised myself no kids after 35. This way Maera will have a great relationship with him/her as well. (I'm secretly hoping for a boy, but either will do.)
So day 1 of my 'APRI' was monday...
I'm slowly catching up on your blogs as I go. I don't even know if anyone checks my blog anymore it's been so long.
TTYS
XOXO
Monday, February 23, 2009
Life is like...
Hi ladies. It's been a while, but the baby keeps me busy, so I don't get much time on the computer anymore.
The move to the new place is coming up in 2 months, we give our notice here at the end of the week. I am very nurvous about moving. David still hasn't gotten any call backs about work, so he's upset and depressed, and I'm stressed about money.
Baby is doing really well, she's getting big. She goes for her second set of shots next week. The first set she slept all day afterwards, so I don't know what to expect this time. Poor thing.
My mother is doing okay. She's starting to get (cancer) bumps in her hands, you can see them, they're little white things that move under the skin. She's trying to stay strong. Most days she's very tired ans sore. But overall she's handling things well, not giving up, she's a spit fire :).
Well off I go for now. Take care ladies :)
TTYL
XOXO
Monday, January 26, 2009
wow! Maera and the SOFT clinic.
Hi ladies!
Maera is doing well, she's learning that she has hands and fingers, it's so cool watching her look at her hands with such amazement. She goes cross eyed when she moves them closer to her face, it's a hoot! She's starting to play with her toys on her bouncy chair and plays with rattles and stuff now. It's so exciting!
Todat David and I went to the SOFT clinic, which is where we went to meet Dr. Martin who helped us (got us), pregnant with Maera. We got to introduce her to the doctor and the technitions and nurses at the clinic. I cried out of pure joy. The waiting room was full of couples waiting to see Dr. Martin. I felt a little weird going in there with a baby as I know what its like to even see a baby in an office for fertility patients; but overall it was awesome. I walked in and it was like I hit a wall of emotions, remembering what it was like going through all the blood work and monitoring and waiting. Then the tech & nurse came out and they held Maera, I cried and hugged them. When David was taking her out of her snow suit in the middle of the room he simply said to the people watching him, this is what happens after 6 long years of trying. It does happen, miracles do happen. It was so nice to bring a little hope to people. Dr Martin came out (my hero), we introduced him to Maera and we hugged him. I asked what we do when we want to have another, he simply said "I'll give you as many as you want, you can keep coming back!!" He smiled and we thanked him again. I turned around and made my apointment for June 1st.. I'M SO EXCITED!! So we get to start trying again in June! YAAAAY! :):):):) Can ya tell I'm all excited?!
I feel like screaming to the world about the SOFT clinic and how nice they are and how good they are at what they do. A couple in the waiting room congradulated us, and we wished them the best of luck. I said Dr. Martin will make it happen for you, keep your chin up, its worth the wait, He's my hero... Best of luck... I wish I could have told everyone that IT CAN HAPPEN!! You can get pregnant, and have a beautiful baby after all the trials of TTC. No matter how down you get IT DOES HAPPEN!
I am so blessed...
TTYL
XOXO
Maera is doing well, she's learning that she has hands and fingers, it's so cool watching her look at her hands with such amazement. She goes cross eyed when she moves them closer to her face, it's a hoot! She's starting to play with her toys on her bouncy chair and plays with rattles and stuff now. It's so exciting!
Todat David and I went to the SOFT clinic, which is where we went to meet Dr. Martin who helped us (got us), pregnant with Maera. We got to introduce her to the doctor and the technitions and nurses at the clinic. I cried out of pure joy. The waiting room was full of couples waiting to see Dr. Martin. I felt a little weird going in there with a baby as I know what its like to even see a baby in an office for fertility patients; but overall it was awesome. I walked in and it was like I hit a wall of emotions, remembering what it was like going through all the blood work and monitoring and waiting. Then the tech & nurse came out and they held Maera, I cried and hugged them. When David was taking her out of her snow suit in the middle of the room he simply said to the people watching him, this is what happens after 6 long years of trying. It does happen, miracles do happen. It was so nice to bring a little hope to people. Dr Martin came out (my hero), we introduced him to Maera and we hugged him. I asked what we do when we want to have another, he simply said "I'll give you as many as you want, you can keep coming back!!" He smiled and we thanked him again. I turned around and made my apointment for June 1st.. I'M SO EXCITED!! So we get to start trying again in June! YAAAAY! :):):):) Can ya tell I'm all excited?!
I feel like screaming to the world about the SOFT clinic and how nice they are and how good they are at what they do. A couple in the waiting room congradulated us, and we wished them the best of luck. I said Dr. Martin will make it happen for you, keep your chin up, its worth the wait, He's my hero... Best of luck... I wish I could have told everyone that IT CAN HAPPEN!! You can get pregnant, and have a beautiful baby after all the trials of TTC. No matter how down you get IT DOES HAPPEN!
I am so blessed...
TTYL
XOXO
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Happy New Year and all that jazz! I trust everyone's holidays were great! I
'I'm sure I don't have long as the baby has already started crying hehe, I think she has censors for when I open up the computer!
We're all doing well. David got his lay off notice for work, so we're both on employment benefits right now... which really sux! He's looking for another job though. Baby is just going through her first cold, yesterday was bad, today she seems to be doing much better. The xray was disturbing. They sat her on a bike seat in a hole on a wooden table, asked me to hold her legs straight while they pulled her arms straight up and clamped a plastic bottle around her so she couldn't move. It was like they stuffed her in a 2LT pop bottle, it was so disturbing, poor thing. She's doing much better today though.
We're still working on the new place and should be moving in sometime in april/may.
I should head out for now, take care and I'll do my best to visit your blogs to check them out. Take care ladies!
TTYL
XOXO
'I'm sure I don't have long as the baby has already started crying hehe, I think she has censors for when I open up the computer!
We're all doing well. David got his lay off notice for work, so we're both on employment benefits right now... which really sux! He's looking for another job though. Baby is just going through her first cold, yesterday was bad, today she seems to be doing much better. The xray was disturbing. They sat her on a bike seat in a hole on a wooden table, asked me to hold her legs straight while they pulled her arms straight up and clamped a plastic bottle around her so she couldn't move. It was like they stuffed her in a 2LT pop bottle, it was so disturbing, poor thing. She's doing much better today though.
We're still working on the new place and should be moving in sometime in april/may.
I should head out for now, take care and I'll do my best to visit your blogs to check them out. Take care ladies!
TTYL
XOXO
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