Today = Meh!

I think I'm getting more and more depressed as time goes on here. I'm doing my best to stay positive and keep myself busy until this is all over with. But today I found that I couldn't go onto my normal message boards to chat because I don't want to bombard them with my depression. There are a couple of the ladies who got bfp's the last two days, I am very happy for them, and I wish I could express it a little better, but I can't help but cry when I read their posts... because just last week I wrote the same post.
My mom called today, I usually talk to her every day, I missed yesterday and she ended up calling me today before I could call her. She wanted to know if I was okay... I just told her I was keeping myself busy. She asked if I started to bleed yet and I said no, she didn't really know what to say after that. I love my mom, she asks the right questions at the right time in the right tone. I should call her back again befor bed.
David will finally be home sometime tonight after being gone with work. It'll be nice to have him home. We leave tomorrow for our trip. I am looking forward to it, but the other part of me hopes I don't bleed now until I'm back home on sunday, I'de like to try and 'forget' for a day, at least for a nice visit and to enjoy the cousins wedding.
Today I did some house work, including de-weeding a small garden out front and the weeds from the sidewalk/driveway. Maera was outside with me in her bouncy thing and she was having a hoot, screaming and laughing and doing raspberries. She was funny with her feet on the grass, took her a minute to relax and start bouncing hehe. She's a sweetheart. And it was nice getting my hands in the earth, even if it was weeds hehe.

Well ladies, that's it for now. I won't be back now until sunday or monday. Take care

TTYS
XOXO