12dpo

Well, today I've had some cramping but not much. I've been tired. I almost thru up last night right before bed. My hpt's are still negative and now I don't have anymore left, so I wait until friday for my BETA.
I really wish I didn't have to go through this to get pregnant, I'm so sick of being addicted to POAS, and obsessing over every little twinge and ache. ARGH.
I'm being extra hard on myself because I think this cycle is a bust. It was looking pretty good, but the tests keep saying nope you're not pregnant! Do it again!

Then I feel guilty because I have a beautiful daughter. But as humans we always want more right? Well one more in our case, then that's it. And the time factor is an issue for me as well... I'll be 35 next year...

I go back to work in september as well and I wanted to be pregnant before I went back as getting the time off to do the IUI would be difficult seeing as I would be returning from MAT leave.

We'll see. Sorry for the whining, but sometimes ya just gotta let it out to be able to move forward.

Anyways, take care ladies.

TTYS
XOXO