An Eventful day for sure!! wow

Hi there.
So today I went for cd16 blood work, and I begged to question the hcg shot. I said that I didn't want to 'miss my chance' on this cycle and normally around this day they give the hcg shot. She said my numbers were looking good, and asked if I was sure I didn't want to see what my natural cycle was like. I said no, I want to have a good chance while the chance is there. So they gave me an u/s while I was there as well, my folly is at 25mm!!! I was like holy cow!! They said yes, you can have the shot if your lh surge hasn't occured, we'll call today to let you know. So I got my call, no LH surge, so here I go with the injection.
The injection here costs $95, David's insurance company said they don't cover anything for fertility. I went to get my perscription and asked her to run the card anyways just to check. The pharmacist said she could almost guarentee they wouldn't cover it if they said that; as ovidrel is used for fertility spesifically. She asked if I really wanted to run it because it would take an extra few minutes. I said yes please... thank God I did because it was the easiest 2 minutes of my life! We saved $95, it actually covered it!!! Yes I jumped up and down and twirled around with a little jig right there... of course everyone laughed but they were happy and so was David!!
So, 10-10:15 came along and man was I freaked out. I'm home alone and need to shoot up with this stuff, not having any experience like this I bucked up and did exactly what the nurse at the dr's office told me to do. Ignore the directions and do what she said, so I did LOL. Where I injected it is tender, but other than that I feel fine! Although I question the hot flash I'm going through it could be the shot, but I dunno. I've got the fan on so I'm good, lol.
Sooooooo. So we go on friday morning to get our very first IUI!! 9:45am! Í am so relieved to know when it's going to happen!! I can't even put it into words hehe.

There's more to my day! So the Dr finally reviewed my cd3 blood work and found that my TSH and 3T4 blood workups were ellivated, which could mean a thiroid problem... which could explain a lot!! So I go tomorrow and get those tests re-done. If this IUI doesn't work, at least I'll have something to keep my mind busy lol. I am happy that they may be able to pinpoint my issue though, specially if the IUI doesn't work.

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Okay, so I've found that my nerves and emotions are running rampid. I feel like I've been on speed (although I've never done the drug, so I'm not saying this first hand lol). I feel like I'm going 100000 miles a minute. I have many many super energy busts throughout the day. I am all up and down with the emotions, and my brain is working overtime. I have moments where I am totally stressed out! Like to the point of having a panic attack, and it seems to be getting more intense daily. I'm guessing that's the estrogen LOL. Then I get all hyper and happy the next minute. I feel so screwed up in my head. I am totally not the normal 'calm' Jenn. I have to take deep breaths and calm myself down... I guess I'm doing the best I can for myself. At least by the time I am prego I'll be used to the ups and downs, and I'll be able to deal with them better lol.

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So David is stressed out! I haven't actually seen him this stressed ever. Now this time of year has always been hard for him, he lost a very important person when he was a child (theresa, she taught him to read, she was a student teacher when he was a child and she passed away during the time she was teaching him. Every year he gets sad at this time). But now the normal blues coupled with his mother's passing is stressing him out too. This time last year is when she got really really sick and started the last bit of her journey, so its hard for everyone, specially his father, brother and himself. Jan 17th will be the one year anniversary of her death. He's reliving his fathers accident as well, being a parapoligic (sp) and getting through that. Now all that would have been easier to deal with if we didn't have all the stress of the IUI. But we are both very greatful for this stress, because really its the good kind... really LOL. But I think it's just compounding because we've been waiting for the IUI date. Now that we know it, things will calm down a bit (we hope). I feel bad because I can't do anything accept tell him we'll be successful at one point and to try and take deep breaths.
So we started joking around about the sperm wash ect, changing lyrics from the song car wash"to "sperm wash"lol. It's our new theme song lol. So at lesst we're still smiling.:) I hope he's okay at work tonight. I honestly never thought that he would get tis stressed about the IUI, but we have never been through it before so its all new to us both.
The nurse said today that IUI's are stressful and with what we've been through with the other two dr's, she totally understand where we're coming from... its good to hear that from them. at least we know they understand.

Oooohhh so many thoughts and the time is late and I am freakin tired. I should goto bed as the next couple days are going to be busy. so take care and thankyou very much for your words of encouragement, they mean soooooo much right now!

XOXO