tomorrow is 7dpiui

So, here we are on almost 7dpiui, and I'm wanting to test! Yay me, a milestone has been passed! haha. Everyone is encouraging me to wait as they don't want me to get depressed (they don't understand what's been going through my mind, but bless their hearts for their concern).

How have I been?
In turmoil emotionally (not so happy, but very swingy)... bloaty, incredibly bloaty, and my gawd I can't stop eating which makes me feel worse cause I feel even more bloated! Although that seems to be passing a bit. I am starting to feel like myself a bit more. I don't know if that's such a good thing or not. I had more cramping today... and I have been "bunged up" (sorry, I know TMI, and that's thankfully ending now as well). Every now and again it'll feel like I have o'ing twinges and such. I've had a little cramping each day still. My thermometer is broken (it busted this morning somehow, go figure cause I just started a fertility friend chart online... lovely! So I can't even get any hints that way now.). I've had small headaches during the day every day, but I don't know if that's just my nerves from my emotions swinging or not. When I showered tonight I noticed the purple colored viens in my breasts were really promonent... that must be the hcg shot as well... cause that happens apparently to a lot of women. Damn shot! I think that's about it really. It's now all become a little torturous!
My friends (the parents to our GodDaughter), their parents own a pharmacy, so I'll be purchasing pregnancy tests from them at cost *grin*. Dave doesn't want me to test either, as he doesn't want me to obssess, well its starting now anyways, I'm well on my way! I probably won't test until after sunday at the very least (that's when the hcg shot should have left my system, and it can take 5-10 days to inplant as well).
I'm scared... honest to God I'm scared... lots of hesitation because I absolutley dread another negative test after all this. I know everyone says that, but I also know you all understand what I'm saying! I'll be just heart sick if its negative. I'll feel really bad for David...

So Gypsy is doing well. We're trying the seperation thing now, crate training at night is going beautifully, last night she stayed the entire night in her crate! We're very happy about that. Tonight I put her in her crate and ran to the bank, when I left she was crying, when I came back she was crying every now and again (I waited outside for a few minutes to listen), but overall I think it went well. Tomorrow she has a 3 hour window of being alone as David is working a 13 hour shift, and I leave at 8am, he won't be home until 10:30-11am... here's to hoping it goes well!

This is Gypsy in the sweater I made her...





Take care all!
XOXO