What's been happening...

Well, I'm waiting for AF. She should be here anytime this week... Then we start IUI 2. I'm looking forward to getting the ball rolling again. I have no AF symptoms, so I may need to use a script to get it started... of course I'll test first, but the DR. said my chances of conceiving normally are 0-1%, so ya know lol...

David is back to work, thank goodness! I love the man, but he never leaves! LOL. I am enjoying the living room with no T.V, just some relaxing music on the computer and typing away here.

I had the worst cold... I am just getting over it apparently. It was really bad yesterday, and today I'm feeling much better. I had a huge hot flash earlier tonight, I think it was this bug breaking finally.

It's snowing here again. My puppy stopped peeing outside when all the snow melted, I took her out tonight and she peed in under 5 minutes... not looking forward to spring LOL.

I want to paint, I've had a need to do so for a while now and I was at a friends place and she has a painting; the artist used fabric on a frame instead of purchasing the expensive canvas ones from the art store, so I may have to follow that artists lead. I don't know what I want to paint yet, but I guess we'll see.

I had a dream the other night that I should write out as well. It was about one of my best friends who passed away last may. 'P' was a kindred spirit, it was an odd dream. Dave and I owned our own place and P's wife and him came to the door. She was sooo happy and friendly, (which was odd because she doesn't much like me anymore). P wasn't himself, he was there but not. I couldn't believe it when I seen him, I embraced him with all I had and told him how much I missed him. I know for sure he said " I'm doing fine Jenn". (Almost like I shouldn't worry about him) I wondered why he was there and said... "P, I thought you passed away... why are you here?" He didn't answer me, simply looked emotionless. I got the feeling that he was worried about his wife. I then looked at his wife who was very happy, she almost seemed not like herself, like she had lost herself. I went to speak with her, and asked her what she had done... "why is P here?" She said she did it, she brought him back. She was very happy, but when I looked at P sitting on the couch he stared blankly into the air, like he was there but not really. I told his wife that whatever she did, she had to undo because it wasn't right. Even though we've had our differences in the past I had to tell her how I felt. The next thing I knew, P was gone and his children and all of our old friends were dancing in our backyard with a lot of joy, almost like they used to around maypoles. I believe his wife was out there too, but don't know for sure... and that was my dream.
Now, I understand the reference to the maypole, as he passed away last may. I understand him saying he was fine. I don't really know why I had this dream all of a sudden, although its probably been building for months as I think of him often. Also Jan last year was the last time I seen him alive. He was at my mother in laws funeral. I can't call his wife to see how she's doing because she won't speak to me, but I think I'll call a mutual friend and inquire this week. Maybe the entire thing was a message that he was fine and not to be sad anymore, but to check in on his wife every now and then for him... I don't know... it just wasn't like a normal dream. It's been on my mind for a couple days now. Hmm... I'm still sad he's gone.

Hope all is well for everyone,
TTYL
XOXO