Well, I have follies there, but nothing sizable... so she figured I was blooming late. I go back friday to see how they've come along. Thanx for all the well wishes for this cycle! But todays report doesn't give me much hope lol... but its early yet still I guess... Grow follies grow!
I joined Weight Watchers tonight... I got all my stuff to go through so I wanna do that for tomorrow and plan out my meals. I get 35 points to play with, plus my extra 35 for the week, which I don't intend on using unless absolutley necassary.
Funny how things work. I have been having a problem with self confidence sinse my failed IUI... lots of depression and anger, self loathing, ect. But this past weekend I got myself a couple new shirts, I straightened my hair, got a cute hat and went out. All of my friends were extra nice about saying how pretty I looked and strangers came up and said how beautiful my voice was (karaoke)... these people didn't really know how I was feeling inside, cause I'm a pretty good faker. So it helped boost my self confidence. I went out the second night and was told I looked hot and such... I posted a new photo on facebook and a guy I haven't seen since May wrote a simple email saying ooooo you look sexy today. lol I felt so good after all the other comments posted on my message baord there as well.... then I went for my apointment this morning and it all came crashing down!
Its amazing how much a simple exam can effect the way you feel about yourself. I mean I say a lot how I don't feel like a woman because of my fertility problems. I have problems feeling beautiful for myself and for my husband because of these problems... how do you make it so it doesn't effect every other area of your life? Struggle struggle struggle. Sometimes I just don't believe in myself... I'm hoping that losing some weight will help, and I hope I can stick with the lifestyle change and get prositive results. It'll be nice to feel successful at something. Cause infertility makes me feel like such a failure sometimes...
Wow, guess I needed to get that off my chest, LOL.
Hope everyone is doing well.
TTYL
XOXO
1 comment:
Well i noticed that sexy picture yesterday and i thnk it's Lovely !! There is still plenty of time for those follies to grow .. grow follies .. you listen here!!!
Good luck with WW - its a pretty easy and straight forward program!
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