SOFT Clinic knocked my socks off!

I LOVE MY NEW DOCTOR!
We walked into the clinic, with dark thoughts of long waites and disapointing results looming in our thoughts. We opened the door to the clinic to find a nouvo art theme going on. It was beautiful...open, with statues and bodices of men and womens bodies, iron artwork of the same theme, some funky light fictures that cascaded from the walls, wood floors and leather comfy chairs! I was wondering if we were in the right place. Oh and did I mention there was noone waiting? NOONE! We registered with the friendly receptionist and joked around with the nurses out front... apparently we had just missed the normal rush of the day... they said 'Take a seat, the Dr. will be right with you", not even 5 minutes passed... maybe just long enough for us to have a good look at the decore... and there he was... the Dr! We were pleasently surpised!
The Dr., a very friendly man, gentle eyes and a kind disposition about him, invited us into his office; one wall covered in plaques and accomplishments, the other wall with some more wonderful artwork! His computer was see thru with shining blue lights, he had a small fountain on an artsy table, along with somemore small body art work. Of course the first thing I said to him was 'My gawd your office is lovely, the art work is beautiful', he simply smiled and said 'we enjoy it! We like to be interesting.' Well, 10 out of 10 there! LOL.
He is a very gentle man, straight to the point with the best 'bedside manor' I have ever encountered with a Dr. He was so relaxed, leaning comfortably in his chair as he wrote down some of our history. He asked the normal questions, how long have you been trying? What treatments have you had? Any operations... ect ect. We explained to him the problems we've had with previous dr's. How our first RE said I was to fat to get an IUI, he seemed to know which dr we were talking about right away... told him about the side effects of clomid, and the other drugs and tests and hell we've been through... His eyes were so sympathetic, he didn't interupt either... He simply, listened! I was shocked! I still am actually...
So after we chatted a bit and he wrote more info down he said "You've been trying for 6 yrs then? ". We relied with a "yes". He turned slowly towards his funky computer and printed some pages off, turned around and said something like.. "Here at the SOFT clinic we like to keep things moving, and once we start something we don't hesitate. This is what we're going to do... and he started going through the paper work FOR AN IUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO FREAKING HAPPY I CAN'T CONTAIN MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I remained calm though as his eyes twinkled and he smiled slightly in a whimsical way, I think he knew the joy he brought us when as he explained our next steps... I think this guy actually 'got it'. We were people today, a loving couple wanting to get pregnant, trying for 6 long, sad, stressful years. OMG, sometimes miracles do happen! We actually found a Dr willing to help us. I mean, he told me to get a blood test done (to check for pregnancy, as I told him about the pregnancy tests from last week) before we left the office today, they'll call tomorrow with the results. He wrote the scripts for provera if I'm not pregnant, he said he didn't want me to have to wait for my period if the test was negative. He gave me a script for PORVERA to help me ovulate, and a requisit for my cd3 blood test. I have all the instructions for the IUI and we start right away!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO HAPPY! I'M SO FRIGIN EXCITED I CAN'T WAIT!
It took me two hours to calm myself down long enough to call my mother, and even then I was balling my eyes out! So it was fun to tell my story to my family, some cried and some were stunned to silence about our next step! I keep looking at the scrpits and requisit and info package and I can't believe it... finally after 6 YEARS!! WE FINALLY GET OUR IUI!
David, my sweetheart takes everything so calmly, here's me a freakin basket case, and he's very happy, yet I think stunned in disblief... so calm!
So ladies who have been thru an IUI... I'll be reading your blogs and doing my research happily over the next few evenings. I am nervous, but VERY excited for our next step to becoming parents!!! YAY US!!

TTYL
Many HuGs!

Awww

Well, mum just gave me bad news, her best friend of MANY years passed away tonight, she's very upset and I am very sad for her. I will miss Pat, I've known her all my life. She was at our wedding and always had nice things to say and was there to support mum thru her stuff as well... Awww Pat I hope you're resting comfortably, you've had bad health for some time now... you deserve peace. Blessings to you... you'll always be remembered. Love you!

Tomorrow...

Tomorrow is the big day, we meet our new RE.

I did 3 other hpt's and two came back negative and there was the first test, then another like it (different brand). So I'll mention it to the DR tomorrow. He'll have to test me before giving me any fertility drugs anyways.

I'm nervous and excited, but more nervous. I have so many thoughts running thru my brain right now of what he'll be like... I am also a little scared that my dream will finally come true... kinda silly I know, but you get so used to believing it won't happen. Then lately the thought of being pregnant actually became a true possiblity... I hope he can help us attain our goal!!

I should go as I have some stuff to do before bed.

TTYL

Grrr I don't know LOL

K, here's a pic of my test. It doesn't really do it much justice, but here it is anyways. I think it could be a screw up, false posivite or something. I called the customer service line and spoke with the lady, she said if it came up within the time limit then Im pregnant... but I dunno, looks to much like an Evap line.
I took another test this morning, but I pee'd to much on it in all the excitment, I pee'd twice LOL. So Off I go to buy more lol. I should purchase stock! Anyways, the blue line is still visible on the test, better in person than in the photo, but at least you'll get why I'm confused!
I'll do another test but I don't believe it will be positive. Reguardless, ere... take a look...

Jenn

Evap line or positive test result??

I'm freaking out a little here... but first, a little history (incase you don't know it)...

DH and I have been TTC for 6 yrs now. We're been thru clomid, metformin, avandia, more tests, lap test, ect ect ect...I was diagnosed with PCOS. Recently due to issues with my RE we have been waiting to meet our new RE, which is this next tuesday coming. I had put myself on prenatal vitamins for the time being, been taking them for about a month or so now... That's the only thing I've been on. So I tracked my CM and tried guessing if I O'd back on cd14, we bd'd appropriatley (grin); which brings us to the last few days.

I have been feeling odd, emotionally/testy, cramping, sore gums, been feeling bunged up (tmi, sorry), now my back is killing me. We were invited to two halloween parties tomorrow night, and being the responsible person I am I tested to see if I could drink or not. I tested tonight as soon as I got home, I had just finished a coffee with one of my gf's. So about 1 minute into the test maturing, with negative results looming, and very thin very light blue line appeared. Now that its been an hour and a half it is still there. I read about Evap lines and read about positive test results... what's your experience? Could this very thin, very light blue line, be the line we've been waiting for for 6 yrs? It looks like it only picked up the left side of the positive line on my equate test. What's your opinion? Any experience in this matter? PLEASE HELP I'M FREAKING OUT lol

I am trying to keep myself calm, of course that was after a shaking fit and tears... but now my head is a little more clear and I am trying to set myself up for devistation. I have been searching online for false positives, positives and Evap lines. The info I found on Equate tests have been pretty good so far. but I really don't want to fall hard... please don't do this to me... I hate this!! The blue dye apparenty is bad for Evap lines, although the line did appear a minute after it was sitting, it only effected the left side of the line... and it is very faint.. so I don't know. Could be either or I guess! I might just be expecting a really bad bout f AF in the next few days!

I'll drop a line and let ya know what happens!!

Forgot to mention its cd25 today... Haven't had a chance to review anyone else blogs, but I will this weekend to catch up.

TTYL

Its growing on me...

Ya, my black hair is growing on me I think lol. My skin is just so white now... I know it always was, but still. hehe

I don't really have anything new to say. I've been moody, but I think it's nerves for next week, I just want it to get here so I know what I'm looking at.

I'll be around to visit everyones blogs tomorrow as its late and I should hit the sack.

TTYL

I dyed my hair dark brown and it came out black... GRRR. I'm angry about that! Aww well, I can change it again in a month, lighten it up a bit I think...

I went to the gym today for the first time in a while. I lost all focus there for a bit, but I gotta stick with it. I feel good that I went. My friend and I will be going again next week, but this time we're taking in a 'body flow' class, that should be interesting! LOL. Apparently its all thi chi, yoga 'n pilates... gawd knows what I've gotten myself into hehe. I hope I enjoy it, should be a hoot anyways lol. I hope I can walk when I goto my doctors apointment the next day hehe.

I have dishes to do, I'm procrastinating... I hate washing the dishes LOL. I did it for 7 yrs when I was younger, maybe that's why!

I have 2 halloween parties to goto this friday, then some friends are coming over for a movie night saturday. I think saturday during the day I'm going to goto woodstock, visit daves dad and visit the niece and nephew... take them to the park or something, if the weather is good enough. I think I may decorate the front of the house for halloween as well... OOOOH and carve a jack-o-lantern!

Well, off for now, to do te darn dishes, then have a shower and possibly paint a bit. I have a lot of little ceramic things on the go right now.

TTYL!

Below, is the unimpressed me with my black hair!