6 wks 5 days preggo

Some cramping, tightness in abdomin, larger heavier breasts, mood swings... I cried while reading a story to Maera lol. I am soooo veeerrrryyyy tired! I love every minute of it!
Off to the Dr's tomorrow morning to see about my wellbutron and pregnancy combo! Then stop by & see Sam... ten to the dollarama to finish getting Maera's & David's stocking things.
Tomorrow night I am going to curl up with my daughter, cook some yummy finger foods, and watch Chriostmas movies with her & daddy... least that's the vision i have in my head anyways hahaha.
Hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas!! Blessings to all of ya's!

TTYS
xoxo

Second BETA came back at 5490!!! I won't get booked in for my first u/s until after the holidays as they're closed.
She was very pleased with my test results and didn't feel further blood work would make a difference. SO now I wait! :):)
Still sinking in that I'm pregnant...

Symptoms have included, fatigue really bad... waking up throughout the night numerous times, freauent urination at night. Tender/sore breasts, lots of dizziness/light headed. Today I am super irritated.

TTYS
XOXO

telling the family

We had the Smith family Christmas this weekend. We took the opportunity to tell the family (well my side anyways :))...  I purchased Maera a shirt that said *Big Sister* on it and had her open it after her and all the kids had opened their other gifts... well it was a better idea than I thought lol. Niff seen it first and was like, what does it say? OOOOHH MYYYY GGGAWWWWD!!! Then my brothers new gf, OOOOH MY GAAWD! The my brother, ARE YOU SERIOUS? YOU DIDN'T TELL ME!, Then my dad was overjoyed as well, shocked almost into silence... but when he found his words he was elated. My nieces where very excited too!!! :):) It was awesome!!
Now hopefully everything is still good in there and babes is growing growing. I am still waiting for the results from my second BETA. SOFT clinic is closed for the holidays now, they'll be checking messages every other day, which means now that I have to wait until tuesday now for my results, argh...
I have to book an apointment with my fam doctor reguarding the wellbutron, so I can further discuss that with them.
I'm starting to get more comfortable (if that's the right word) with being pregnant... just need to remember to take my prenatal med's every day! I am so scared of everything... miscarrying is my biggest fear right now. I'm afraid of how Maera is going to take not being the only babes here anymore, I'm hoping she'll embrace being a big sister, she'll almost be three. I'm afraid of being so very tired, my goodness so much has gone through my mind already... but I am so very happy to be pregnant... I mean really... what a Christmas miracle.

TTYS
XOXO

Beta

So my BETA came back at 2416, and as calculated I am about 5 wks pregnant. The nurse that called said that was a really strong number and I cried, oh did I cry. Its a pure miracel... not that each pregnancy isn't... but I mean come on.
I still have fear of miscarriage as I have M/c'd 2 times in the last year... I'm really hoping third times the charm. What an awesome Christmas gift!
I'm actually in shock.

TTYS
XOXO

K... so, uhh Merry Christmas I guess?

So I did a pregnancy test tonight... and it was positive. It was a dollar store test, and it'a super positive... so off I go to Walmart after Hubby gets home from work to buy a more expensive test.
Merry Christmas to us... I can't see how this could be a false positive, the line is waaaay to dark to be false. OMG.
I wuit smoking last month, still haven't touched a smoke. I went to his xmas party last weekend and had more than just a few drinks... I've been on pain meds & anti infection med's for a tooth I just had pulled 2 days ago... and I've been taking advil liquid gels for the pain... so I'm a little nervous.
I checked though and I should only be 5 wks pregnant... almost exactly, so hopefully I haven't done any damage. I am also on Wellbutrin for quitting smoking and using it as an antidepressant due to stress of losing mom and other stuff. She gave me that just incase I got pregnant, its the safest to use, so I'm not to worried about that...
OMG I can't believe it was positive. I didn't use any drugs or anything.. totally natural, and we only had sex once last cycle due to stress ect... what are the chances?

XOXO
TTYS


Dollar store test


Walmart test about 2.5 hrs later

I did it!!!

I quit smoking on my 35th bday, which was Nov. 18th! I actually woke up a non smoker, my last cig. was on the 17th @ 11:30pm. I am very very proud of myself. I have been a nonsmoker for 6 days now!! :):) Tired

Day 1) No real issues, no obssession with smoking or not smoking, no Nic fits, smooth sailing really which shocked me! Night time day 1, kept waking up, jumping legs while I tried to sleep, nervousness. Was a rough night actually. Tired


Day 2) No real issues, I think I had two moments where I wanted to smoke out of pure habit, wasn't even a nicotine craving. I didn't smoke though! Some Nervousness, tired

Day 3) Getting a little tougher... its all about the habit! The situations I was in all reminded me of smoking, was a mental fight. Some nervousness, tired

Day 4) Bad bad stress levels, nervousness... I was soooo irritated! Hardest day so far!! Picturing myself smoking was not good... did some breathing excersizes and went outside in the cool air to keep myself focused. Lots of coughing and chest clearning happening. Taste buds are exploding as well. Tired

Day 5) Not so bad today, just a few thoughts about smoking, coughing continues, odd reactions to some foods, like with the taste. Tired

Day) The odd craving out of habit... other than that not to much. Tired

WOOT! I am super happy about that!! :):)

TTYS
XOXO

Maera's 2nd Bday & Halloween

Our celebrations started out friday the 29th. Uncle Steve, Tressa, Tessa, Hope, Meadow and Trevin all came and stayed over. When all the kids were finally asleep the adults put up the decorations for the festivites the next day!
On the 30th, Maera turned 2! We had a lot of guests over, about 17 kids and their mum's and dads LOL. We had barley enough room to move in here hahaha. IT WAS A WICKED TIME though! :) The craft I set up went perfect, the pumpkin bowling was a hit as always!! We had pizza, YUM! Cake and ice cream! Maera's God Mom; Aunt Sam made her cake, it had dora on it! We had all the kids play drums and use their shaker that they made for the party craft and we made lots of noise!! The kids loved it!! I did too I must admit haha. Then Maera opened gifts (got lots of nice things too! Including Toopy and Binoo items that came from Montreal! Can't find it around here. Lots of dvd's, clothes and other toys... a small keyboard that she can play, a magnet drawing board with chalk board on the other side, which she LOVES! She got crayons and coloring books, and The fridge magnet alphabet pieces that she loves to play with @ daycare!!! She did really well for a 2 year old! haha.) For Maera's party I was Dora and she was Boots... I'll add pic's below!


Posing in her Party costume!! My Little BOOTS!


Pondering & waiting for guests to arrive hehe.


Maera's bday cake by Aunt Sam!! :)


Me as Dora with my Godson!


Dora doing crafts with all the kids! :)

Halloween night was awesome too! We put up some kick ass decorations, left my brother to arm himself with the candy and took Maera trick or treating! She caught on SOOOO fast! lol. She was knocking on doors and saying trick or Treat all by herself by the third house lol. She even said thankyou all by herself! Then she wanted to run to the next house! David and I were laughing at her telling her to slow down hehe. For only 2 she sure caught on fast!! We changed her outfit for trick or treating as it was chilly. She wore three outfits including the costume, which I've added a picture of below.
So overall we had an awesome weekend for a change, couldn't have asked for anything bettet really! So nice!:)

TTYS
XOXO


My cute Dalmation!