I am still feeling super ill. Bad cold, lots of sneezing, today I had NO energy, I slept until 10 am (thanx to darling hubby), and then went grocery shopping, then came home and went back to bed. I woke up and cooked supper, and am now ready for bed again. Dr. tomorrow with little miss.
Today I posted on facebook to give my piano away. I wanted a piano all my life and finally got one like 3 years ago... now I have to give it away, soo so sad. :( We're movoing, probably into a townhouse as David's father is selling the house. Not that I'm sad to be leaving here, because I'm not really. There are many sad memories attached to this place. David's mom's death, my mom's death... time to let that all go & move on. Just wish we had a place already and all that... I know I don't need to over worry, things will fall into place. This is what the universe intended.
Anyways, off I go to la la land. Take care!
TTYS
XOXO
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Saturday, January 22, 2011
11 wks! woot!
OMG do I feel ill. headache n all. losing my voice, hacking up a lung, super tired & moodalicious. I can't wait until this trimester is over. I have absolutely no modvation to do anything... i just have no energy. It bothers me cause I'm a go go go person. Hurry up 3 wks lol.
Hope you're all well.
TTYS
XOXO
Hope you're all well.
TTYS
XOXO
Friday, January 21, 2011
10w 6d
I miss my mother. Some days I feel like I'm never going to be happy again. Like I want to smile and feel really happy... I've just got so many depressing things going through my head. I am so angry about losing mom and angry about a lot of things in life. I miss being happy and I don't know how to be genrally happy.
Don't get me wrong I am happy there is a baby growing in me, but I mean that comes with stress and anxiety too. My brother lives with us and most days I wish he didn't. I'm angry because I'm ALWAYS the responsible one... and I've been given all this extra responsibility and it makes me angry... I just wish someone else would say, hey jen, I don't want you to worry about this... I'll take care of it... you just make sure that baby is growing healthy in there. Nope, don't work that way!
It bothers me that we have to find a new place to live, which will include doug... like no offence, but I want my own fucking life too! And I wish David would do more around the house. i've bothered him for YEARS, yes YEARS now to go through all his clothes and get rid of what he doesn't want, and he won't!! LIKE WHY NOT? OMG. He has piles of clothes all over the place in the basment and spare room... Everything is just so friggin frusterating. There's sooo much that I can't even articulate it all. And its not just pregnancy hormones... its reality and I don't know what to do about any of it.
Anyways, thanx for listening to me vent... I'm just so frusterated and angry and depressed about a lot of things.... its hard to see past that some days.
K, gotta go, David just came home
TTYS
XOXO
Don't get me wrong I am happy there is a baby growing in me, but I mean that comes with stress and anxiety too. My brother lives with us and most days I wish he didn't. I'm angry because I'm ALWAYS the responsible one... and I've been given all this extra responsibility and it makes me angry... I just wish someone else would say, hey jen, I don't want you to worry about this... I'll take care of it... you just make sure that baby is growing healthy in there. Nope, don't work that way!
It bothers me that we have to find a new place to live, which will include doug... like no offence, but I want my own fucking life too! And I wish David would do more around the house. i've bothered him for YEARS, yes YEARS now to go through all his clothes and get rid of what he doesn't want, and he won't!! LIKE WHY NOT? OMG. He has piles of clothes all over the place in the basment and spare room... Everything is just so friggin frusterating. There's sooo much that I can't even articulate it all. And its not just pregnancy hormones... its reality and I don't know what to do about any of it.
Anyways, thanx for listening to me vent... I'm just so frusterated and angry and depressed about a lot of things.... its hard to see past that some days.
K, gotta go, David just came home
TTYS
XOXO
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
10wks 3d
Today I had my midwife apointment. It went awesome, was with heather this time. She's cool. i asked about having baby at home, she said yes. So my goal is to get on the GD train now, so when blood work time comes I pass with flying colours. Exersize & different diet, so I'll do more research on that tonight.
I got to hear my beans heartbeat again today... she was actually able to get it on the doppler... it was faint, but it sounded like heaven!! :) I've fallen in love.
That's all for now, supper may be burning LOL
TTYS
XOXO
I got to hear my beans heartbeat again today... she was actually able to get it on the doppler... it was faint, but it sounded like heaven!! :) I've fallen in love.
That's all for now, supper may be burning LOL
TTYS
XOXO
Sunday, January 16, 2011
10 wks, 1 day
My Butt is getting HUGE! Argh! I keep eating... and at night time no less!! Not good!!!
Still fatigued, heartburn, nauseated the odd time, really sore back... cramping, pretty strong at times. And did I mention my BUTT IS HUGE?! Like bigger than normal! Argh!
Look!
See?
I go to my first midwife apointment this week, tuesday actually. I'm excited about that! :):)
Oh! Almost forgot!! U/S Pic!!
Our Little bean! YAAAY! Heart rate was 171 BPM!! Feb 8th is my next u/s! :) Woot!
TTYS
XOXO
Still fatigued, heartburn, nauseated the odd time, really sore back... cramping, pretty strong at times. And did I mention my BUTT IS HUGE?! Like bigger than normal! Argh!
Look!
See?
I go to my first midwife apointment this week, tuesday actually. I'm excited about that! :):)
Oh! Almost forgot!! U/S Pic!!
Our Little bean! YAAAY! Heart rate was 171 BPM!! Feb 8th is my next u/s! :) Woot!
TTYS
XOXO
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
9 wks 3 days pregnant
Well I had the first U/S for our magic little bean. And there is only 1 lol... hb @ 171! Measured 22mm, which measured a little small from my dd. So baby measured 8wks 6d, and I was 9 wks, 2d preggo.
I have a video with the heartbeat because Daddy couldn't make it to the u/s... it's on Youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x78seAPNjuQ
Symptoms have been the same, fatigue, some nausea, heartburn, emotional ups & downs.
I woke up in the middle of the early early morning, the morning of my u/s crying for my mother. I Wish she was here for this. I cried for her when I left the u/s apointment as well. It just plain sux that she isn't here for any of this.
We're moving, Bob is selling the house. We're okay with that as its keeping us broke. Now we just need to find a new place suitable for 3 adults & two kids. My brother is still with us, so we have to keep that in mind. He's on the housing list, but I don't know how much longer, I think 1 year 2 months or something. There was originally 1.5 yrs wait.
Well, off I go. Take care ladies.
TTYS
XOXO
I have a video with the heartbeat because Daddy couldn't make it to the u/s... it's on Youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x78seAPNjuQ
Symptoms have been the same, fatigue, some nausea, heartburn, emotional ups & downs.
I woke up in the middle of the early early morning, the morning of my u/s crying for my mother. I Wish she was here for this. I cried for her when I left the u/s apointment as well. It just plain sux that she isn't here for any of this.
We're moving, Bob is selling the house. We're okay with that as its keeping us broke. Now we just need to find a new place suitable for 3 adults & two kids. My brother is still with us, so we have to keep that in mind. He's on the housing list, but I don't know how much longer, I think 1 year 2 months or something. There was originally 1.5 yrs wait.
Well, off I go. Take care ladies.
TTYS
XOXO
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