heartbroken

I just took Chewy to the vet's and had him put to sleep. I am so heartbroken. I hope he's with mom again, I hope their re-union was awesome. He was so very sick and weak. The other pets have noticed something a little different... but Maera hasn't said anything yet.

Ya know 2 wks ago Maera lost the brush my mom gave her before she passed away. I couldn't find it anywhere and I was so sad it was gone... today when I got home from taking Chewy to the vet it was laying right beside my chair on the floor. I picked it up and looked at it cause I couldn't believe it was there... right in plain sight. Weird... but not so weird.
RIP Chewy, may you be blessed. You brought us all so much joy and love over the years. I'll always remember your biting the water shooting out of the sprinkler, and playing with your sqeaky balls that were always so annoying. You used to love licking everyone, and you were soooo smart. You were special Chewy, thanx for all the love you showed mom throughout dad's stroke and her illness. You have been such a blessing. I love you very much and miss you dearly.

XOXO

7wks 4 dys

That darn tooth is now pulled! WOOT! Can't wait til I can feel my face again though! Least my tongue isn't frozen this time!!
Gotta put my mom's dog down. I'm going to book the apointment for either tomorrow or the next day in the am. He can't stand on his own very well, and when we do get him outside to pee he falls while he's peeing. He hasn't eaten in two days either, so its just cruel to keep him. I'm pretty sad about that, but I mean what else can I do? I don't want him to suffer.
K, off I go for now, gotta relax after getting that tooth pulled.

TTYS
XOXO

7wks 3dys

Hi everyone. I'm having severe tooth ache today, as well as Dec 25th at night, throughout the day on the 26th. I get my second tooth pulled tomorrow at 11:30am. Hopefully that takes care of that pain... argh. I was really hoping they'd take me today, but they're full, argh. Tylanol doesn't work worth crap and I can't take anything else, argh.
Feeling pretty good otherwise, still very tired all the time, some cramping, some emotional stuff. Had a little bit of nausea this morning, not to bad though.
Oh, Christmas was awesome! Maera got spoiled! We got a new camera, so thankfully I'lkl be able to take nice updated pic's of Maera now.
Hope everyone else holidays where awesome too.

TTYS
XOXO

6 wks 5 days preggo

Some cramping, tightness in abdomin, larger heavier breasts, mood swings... I cried while reading a story to Maera lol. I am soooo veeerrrryyyy tired! I love every minute of it!
Off to the Dr's tomorrow morning to see about my wellbutron and pregnancy combo! Then stop by & see Sam... ten to the dollarama to finish getting Maera's & David's stocking things.
Tomorrow night I am going to curl up with my daughter, cook some yummy finger foods, and watch Chriostmas movies with her & daddy... least that's the vision i have in my head anyways hahaha.
Hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas!! Blessings to all of ya's!

TTYS
xoxo

Second BETA came back at 5490!!! I won't get booked in for my first u/s until after the holidays as they're closed.
She was very pleased with my test results and didn't feel further blood work would make a difference. SO now I wait! :):)
Still sinking in that I'm pregnant...

Symptoms have included, fatigue really bad... waking up throughout the night numerous times, freauent urination at night. Tender/sore breasts, lots of dizziness/light headed. Today I am super irritated.

TTYS
XOXO

telling the family

We had the Smith family Christmas this weekend. We took the opportunity to tell the family (well my side anyways :))...  I purchased Maera a shirt that said *Big Sister* on it and had her open it after her and all the kids had opened their other gifts... well it was a better idea than I thought lol. Niff seen it first and was like, what does it say? OOOOHH MYYYY GGGAWWWWD!!! Then my brothers new gf, OOOOH MY GAAWD! The my brother, ARE YOU SERIOUS? YOU DIDN'T TELL ME!, Then my dad was overjoyed as well, shocked almost into silence... but when he found his words he was elated. My nieces where very excited too!!! :):) It was awesome!!
Now hopefully everything is still good in there and babes is growing growing. I am still waiting for the results from my second BETA. SOFT clinic is closed for the holidays now, they'll be checking messages every other day, which means now that I have to wait until tuesday now for my results, argh...
I have to book an apointment with my fam doctor reguarding the wellbutron, so I can further discuss that with them.
I'm starting to get more comfortable (if that's the right word) with being pregnant... just need to remember to take my prenatal med's every day! I am so scared of everything... miscarrying is my biggest fear right now. I'm afraid of how Maera is going to take not being the only babes here anymore, I'm hoping she'll embrace being a big sister, she'll almost be three. I'm afraid of being so very tired, my goodness so much has gone through my mind already... but I am so very happy to be pregnant... I mean really... what a Christmas miracle.

TTYS
XOXO

Beta

So my BETA came back at 2416, and as calculated I am about 5 wks pregnant. The nurse that called said that was a really strong number and I cried, oh did I cry. Its a pure miracel... not that each pregnancy isn't... but I mean come on.
I still have fear of miscarriage as I have M/c'd 2 times in the last year... I'm really hoping third times the charm. What an awesome Christmas gift!
I'm actually in shock.

TTYS
XOXO

K... so, uhh Merry Christmas I guess?

So I did a pregnancy test tonight... and it was positive. It was a dollar store test, and it'a super positive... so off I go to Walmart after Hubby gets home from work to buy a more expensive test.
Merry Christmas to us... I can't see how this could be a false positive, the line is waaaay to dark to be false. OMG.
I wuit smoking last month, still haven't touched a smoke. I went to his xmas party last weekend and had more than just a few drinks... I've been on pain meds & anti infection med's for a tooth I just had pulled 2 days ago... and I've been taking advil liquid gels for the pain... so I'm a little nervous.
I checked though and I should only be 5 wks pregnant... almost exactly, so hopefully I haven't done any damage. I am also on Wellbutrin for quitting smoking and using it as an antidepressant due to stress of losing mom and other stuff. She gave me that just incase I got pregnant, its the safest to use, so I'm not to worried about that...
OMG I can't believe it was positive. I didn't use any drugs or anything.. totally natural, and we only had sex once last cycle due to stress ect... what are the chances?

XOXO
TTYS


Dollar store test


Walmart test about 2.5 hrs later